Jiya Se Jiya.....!

First job resigned !

2009-08-16T12:26:00.004+05:30

Hi Miss bloggy,

UPDATES :

RESIGNED JOB : 12th July 09

Have started on my own , as an entrepreneur ,,,,,i guess after working for a year in DHIRUBHAI AMBANI's company i.e RELIANCE>....i did not need more inspiration to do what i wanted to do....!!

The last year ,,has been not less than a roller coaster ride,,,, worked with a great team,,worked in a great project,,,,worked in a great company,,,made a reputation for myself..i guess if i want to self boast now,,i can easily say that by saying that within a short span,,i did a lot of stuff,,which few could do in my department....more mportantly,,,got the respect and trust of my seniors,,and the ones with whom i worked....!!!

AT PRESENT :

Its not that easy,,,,,at the same time its exciting,,,,have not earned much in the last two months,,,,honestly,,,i have questioned my decision quite a few time,,,,but not to the point of regretting it...!!!

Parents have given me full support,,thats the biggest positive i carry,,,!!!

About my new sojourn,,,have decided to start a new blog on the same lines......so off to wordpress for sometime..!

Need your blessings ...in wholesale amount..>!!!

Ankiet..~!

One step ahead ..!!

2009-06-05T01:27:00.002+05:30

Hi MISS BLOGGY,,

HERE I GO ,,,, ONE MORE STEP TOWARDS THE NEXT PHASE,,, ENTREPRENEURSHIP....!!!

Kal kisne dekha !!!

2009-05-26T23:09:00.004+05:30

Hi MISS BLOG,,,

Ankit or Akshay kumar ???

A lot has been happening in the past few days,,,,, i mean both professionally and socially,,,

professionally got involved in a pretty interesting project,,,,have a presentation on the 4th of the june for the same,,,,pretty geared up for it....!!!

On the social level.....a girl coming and telling you sing ,,,,,wait man ,,,there is a catch,,,it was in a party,,,where every one had to sing a song,,,, I sung a song called "Tum Ho Toh " from rock on,,,,,,and after some time,,i got this request from a bombshell type of girl,,to sing the song again.....as was obious i did it again.,,,with a lot more feelings,,,,,,

Btw the girl is a senior in my office,,,and she is already engaged to a guy from the same company...... but hey,,,,she has made me believe that i am hearable.......so you can hear often voices coming out rom my flat at unearthly hours,,,,,and glares from my mates....!!!

Also had trips to :

1. Palitana : its near bhavnagar,, ,,Jain temples out here,,6 hours away from my place ,,some random pics down here....will post more soon...!!!

2. Asha pura temple : near Jamnagar,,,people from far away come here...bare footed,,walking all the way...!!

On top of the world : Above a small dam,,or is it called a canal

He was the lone man selling flowers outside the temple,AND we complain about our jobs !
Is it appealing >>>?
EH..?????

Recently Books read : a> SHANTARAM
b> Q & A ,aka slumdog millionaire,Vikas Swarup , film was better

Recently movies watched : 99 -excellent film, must watch
Manorama six feet under : Excellent film , hats off to Abhay deol

Music listening to : KAUN THA : Atif aslam

Rejuvenation

2009-04-08T22:11:00.003+05:30

Hi Miss Bloggy,

List of places i visited recently :

1. Narara Island

2. Jamnagar

3. Bike ride to Dwarka

4. Dwarka

5. Bet- Dwarka

6. Porbander- Yes i visited our Mahatma's ( Gandhiji ) Birthplace, i had to after reading the Great Man's autobiography : My Experiments With Truth , i feel it should be made compulsory for every Indian to read this book.

7.Osho Ashram- Near porbander

I have taken some exquisite pics ( according to my standards : will post them time to time) on these small chota chotta trips ,

About professional life : It's going great as i see it, got involved in some projects i would have liked to work on . Right now deputed on the site ( i am a process designer , which is kind of white collar job ) : But at present have been sent on a special task to the refinery construction site, it is quite a good exposure , around 5000 strong labourers (or foremen ) are working there . It is kind of astonding to see the project planning that requires handling suck kind of manpower at one time.

On the personal front :

I mean i am right now at a stage where i can safely say that life could not be better than it is now ; merely due to the reasons :

a. Having a comfortable life,

b. surrounded by comfortable people on professional as well as at home

c. Doing a job , from which i do get a kick

But even then yeh DIL MAANGE MORE , it really kills me to hear from Mom that "I guess , Dad needs you !"

Expecting my Dad to say the same lines would be like asking : Advani and Sonia advocating the same cause !

I have asked for some time , atleast till my project gets over, i am sure i will take the correct call then !

I have some ideas to start as an entrepreneur , though not concrete , but as sis says that nothing is concrete untill i start moving in that direction !

Anywayz more later ,

Adeiu .

Parents Day out At RIL !

2009-03-18T22:42:00.005+05:30

Hi Miss blog,,

Some of my "My favourite pics.." ,,had taken them to our excursion to a place called NARARA BET ,,,,or NARARA ISLAND ,,,,..a different post would do justice to it !!!!

By the way,,had my parents visiting my place i.e. JAMNAGAR ,,this weekend,,,

made them visit :

i.e

a.>> my workplace : RIL : the world's largest refinery,,here at jamnagar :- showed them its magnitude,

1. the state of the art Refinery control center ,
2. my desk, explained my dad what work RIL does,,and what part i am playing in it ,
3. showed them how the refinery works, the safety issues,,,,

Actually my dad has been an entrepreneur all his life,,,,and together with my mom : they have never seen an industry or an industry of this magnitude for that matter,,,My mom's excitement was quite visible,,,

((Thoda filmy style : : Would even get myself killed for that expression,,,,invaluable..and i mean it ..!!! ))

b.>> Made them visit our port where the huge crude cargo VESSELS STATION THEMSELVES.....luckily one of the vessels which was being filled with NAPTHA ,,the captain of the ship offered my DAD to have a look into the cargo,,,,,so together for the first time we saw the inside of a huge cargo,,:
1. their smoking room, the gymnasium,,their dining room...creativity room,,,captains room,,,the navigation pannel,,,the maps they follow and how they follow,,,,

the ship was from Korea i guess,,the captain was from philliphines,,,,,he inquired me about SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE<<<,, he wanted to see the film !!! c.>>they were in awe with the township,,,,enjoyed their stay here ..!

d.>> went to Dwarka with them ,,,,on HOLI day.,.,,,fantabulous,,,will post the pics later...>!!!

Overall i guess,,they enjoyed their stay here,,, had a good time with them ,!!!

On a personal level ,,,it was quite satisfying to show my parents where i work,,,,how the technology works and its advancement,,,,explaining them what work i do.....!!!

Gave mom some Hard cash from my salary for the first time,,,,and she started crying softly,,,aha again filmy style....,!!!

She just gave me a call,,that she has fixed deposited them at a bank as a memorabilia .....emotional atyachaar !!!

My project...a glimpse..!

2009-02-27T22:40:00.003+05:30

Hi Miss bloggy,

This is where i work,,proud to have a small part in it,,

It is a War out there ,,,,workforce count at peak time was around 100,000 ....and don't worry i have made sure the no. of zero'es is not wrong...!!

(can't give the details of the photo's,,,its confidential.Company sue kar dega) Working as a process design engineer ,,though new to the field,,but a good exposure,,,,,am working in the loss prevention unit.....have to see that the plant works upright ,,check the smooth operation of the humungous and complex plant..>!

Saving property and more importantly human lives from hazardous substances...!!

Basically to prevent accident's in the plant...!!!

bahut technical gyan ho gaya,,,!

(Master chef at work,,,woh salad maine prepare kiya hain...sirf pose nahin kiya hain!)

listening to :
a. > Mera pehla pehla pyaar hain yeh....!!!
b. > Yeh zindagi bhi : from the movie Luck by Chance ,,mind blowing video...!..

ZAHIR

2009-02-22T22:59:00.007+05:30

Hi MISS BLoggy,,,

Without any ado, let me start with something that has been accumulating in my HEART for quite some time ,,,,

Let me start with the musts for this blog which i am going to write (PLEASE NOTE THE TENSE ' going' , for i have not still completed the blog,,,, )

a. I am going to write this in the most layman language possible , not using any fashionable or rather vogue language to convey my emotions...

b. I am going to post this blog at the first draft itself, that means finish the blog and post it......so spare me for the innumerable grammatical mistakes and huge no. of spell mistakes, which though is usaul with my blogs ...

c. I am going to make sure that the person for whom i have written this blog ,,,reads it........,,i don't know why ,,,but i want it to be done for the first time...!!!

more rules will be set as i move ahead with my writing...!!

My present Mood : worried for tommorow's OSCAR results ....am sure RAHMAN is going to win it though.....so Oscar's is what is on my mind right now.....and physically i am feeling as tired as possible,.....i mean like yesterday i hope i don;t sleep on the computer itself...!!!!!

So the post is going to be about a person,,,,,,who is springing back on my mind ,,,,,time to time,,,,again and again,.....!!!

You want to know WHY ...???and WHO...???

welll even if you don't want to know it ,,i am going to blog about it MY MISS BLOGGY....!!!

Right now i am 23 legally and in these 23 years ,,,i have bbeen naturally attracted to the opposite sex EMOTIONALLY a few time......and with some assumptions ,,, i think vice versa also has been true...!!!!

So i am going to write about the only person who has been able to hold her place in my faculties most strongly....!!!

But why blog about her,,,,,i feel its neccessary to do it,,,it has been poking my mind from quite some time.....I NEVER THOUGHT IN MY LIFE THAT I WOULD BE ADMITTING THIS <<<!!!!

To give a small introduction......

I guess in everybody's life there are references in our life,,,which comes back to your mind as soon as you come to a situation similar to that...... For instance when you move to a new address or place,,you start comparing it with the life you had in your previous one....!! Also same holds true for the material stuff,,,,,your first mobile,,,,your first SMS,,,,your first car,,your first job,,,,,your first accident......etc...!! I am saying that the emotions associated with those moments,,,holds special place in our mind's memory...and we keep on adding to it...as time moves on,,,and we keep coming to similar situations like that.......adding to that set of emotions and using it as reference with time to time...>!!!! the same applies to a set of emotions called maybe in layterms LOVE>>>!!!

So narrating in a bollywoodish style about the person whom i going to blog,,and the story we had so far,,and the emotions i have piled in my HEART because of the interaction with her...

We had met in school.....i was attracted to her at the first glance itself.....,, i mean woh physical wala attraction nahin,,,,,but kuch alag tha,,,,, WE came good friends,,,within no time,,,,as far as i can remember...we had exchanged friendship bands,,,,being one of the instance i remember.........!!!

What i liked about her..????

Honesty......i guess every atom in her body had an element of truth ,,,,,,very clearly stating her liking,,,,,no double games,,,,,,no mind games,,,just plain truth.....!! Very strong with her emotions atleast externally,.,,,,our friendship just hit off....i had an extremely comfortable zone with her around...!!!!
She felt i dressed decently and was Sincere..!

It was not the JAANE TU ya JAANE NA type of deep friendship ./....but something sort of where we talked to each other,,,teased each other,,ehhhhhhhhhhh.......,,,in short i can't explain it...!!!! In short i had great admiration for her...!!!! ( 'had' .....?? )

Running ahead in time....After school ,,,,she moved to a college.....and i tried my luck for preparation for competitive exams....cleared one of them,,,.....no major communications between us during this period...>..!!!!

I joined my college.....first year passed offf....no major communication...!!! In the second year of my engineering.....i guess,,,we met each other,,,,,online./.......!!! I mean it was not of the sort of the orkutish online meeting,.,,,,where i like a despo and frusto guy,,who went on looking for interactions with girls....!!

i was more occupied with the proceedings in my college,,studies....sports,,,,family,,,,,i guess...girls were the last thing in my mind,,,then........i mean it may be abnormal to say that,,, But it was the case,,,, i mean ,,,,i had no major emotions for any opposite sex,,,,i was happy exploring them on Videos,,,,and other avenues available ,,as far as i can remember...!!!

So here by chance we met online,,,,, we used to meet online,,,,sharing each other's nitty gritties.....i mean ,,...she was the one....who moved with the interactions....i mean in starting conservations.,,,, more keen....,NOT trying to sound "DUDISH " ,,but the plain truth ,,and i liked that....i mean her honesty,,in doing so.......!!!

Slowly i got addicted to the conversations with her....and i admitted to her at the first instance itself....!!! Eventually it became a daily chore for both of us......i mean it was more or less compulsory to report to each other,,,,with our daily proceedings...!!

We were at two different cities,,,and eventually we met at my city......and our meeting had something MAGICAL>.....to be short.....i didn't do anything special for her,,,,nor did she do anything....and to my judgement...she was the very poorly dressed ,,,with a specs,,,and a trousers,,,or something to that effect..,,,.!! But that meeting had a effect on me ,,,,i felt for the first time,,,that i shared a special feeling for her,,,, and even i asked her this question ... in my college canteen/..... Can you define our relationship....??? She said " Its between love and freindship...!"

So moving ahead......we started caring about each other,,,,i was tensed abt her academics,,,,she about my....!!!

We talked till late night sometimes.....and started using the sentences,,,, MISS YOU .... !!,,,,,,,,,,,,,,WAS thinking about you all day...!!,,,,,Wish we were together...!!,,,we even fantasized what we would have done for each other if we were together....!!! And i assume it was all genuine....!! When not able to get online....i SMS'ed her from my sisters mobile.....(AND THAT REMINDS ME ,,HOW I HATED MOBILES THEN....i did'nt had one.....) to which she even complained that,,,,whether she was not a big motivation for me buying and keeping a mobile..??

So time moved on for perhaps one year,,,,where ,,,,we used to time our meeting time...scolding each other if anyone was late...!!!. She occupying most of my time,,,,,i mean in my mind,,,and she said the same...>!!!!

We talked abt anything and everything to be with each other....fantasing abt each other,,,,,talking and discussing daily affairs.,her previous affairs,,,,,.i asked her abt my feelings for her,,,,that WHY DID i think abt her all time,,,,,was it normal.,,Would we be friends like this all time,,,,.etc...!!! this went for abt a year,,,,i guess....then came her competitive exams ,,CAT and all that stuff,,,placements ,,etc...!!!

And moving ahead in time......our interactions suddenly became lesser,,,,,she started coming online lesser...,,even if she did,,,she started talking abt her ex bf,,,to whom i referred as her superman..,,,,

now when i used the words : Miss you,,,,thinking abt you...she felt i was being mushy..i stopped using them ? ...

.i sms'ed her......to which she didn't reply quite a few time....and then one day she stated ...."I don;t like talking on sms'es ???" ...i stopped sms'ing her...!!

I called her a few time...she said that "She was with a friend of her,,,watching a movie,,",,etc

And then one day....during our chance online meeting,,,,she stated that..""..ANKIT IT's important for me to tell you that .,,, i have a bf now...!!!!"" I said okay........and ended our conversation ....!!!

To be honest,,i never expected myself.....but i had broken off then,,,i mean i had cried,,,,and i don;t know why......i felt dejected then.....feeling different sets of emotions ,,,ANGER<,FRUSTRATION,,,,REJECTED<,,,,and the worst USED<,,,,,going on me..>!! i stayed moodless for quite a few days,,,,!!! I answered myself a few question ....

WHY DID i FEEL USED..???

The answer to that was simple....

**She had broken off from her ex bf then......when i came on to the scene,,Was this the reason?

**Caring abt her,,,she became the centre of my thoughts,,,,and she said the same.....to which i had no doubts,,,,,,then why sudden change of heart.....???

**Was i just a buffer for her...??...satisfying her longing for attention....,,,giving her a importance,,,and most importantly ,,,,giving her time and reasons ...to forget abt her ex-flame,,,for which she had and has maybe huge emotions attached...!

there were different set of emotions going on in my mind...!!

Dejected ?

*** I mean .....there was this girl...for whom i used to run off from my college festivals,,,,just to be in time to talk to her,,,feel her presence....

***We used to stay late online,,waiting for each other,,,,just to say a hi to each other..when anyone of us was not around at the scheduled time..!!!

***I had never proposed to her,,,,nor had we committed to each other....but we did say to each other that we liked each other....and it would be tough even imagining not talking to each other... the indifference to me ,,,.?

To cut the story short :

I felt myself to be a little like chandramukhi .....or rather chanda....!!!!

I cleared my mind,,,, and said to myself...that .....Atleast she was honest abt her emotions..she was honest in stating that "She has a BF now ///"

But AS we had discussed many times....that the base of our relationship is FRIENDSHIp,,which is very strong... thereby,,,,our relationship will always continue on that level....

I thought i should atleast talk to her as a good friend,,which we had always been..!

Anyways cutting the bollywoodish writing,,,,

let me state the intent of writing this blog post ,,,and why is it important for me..: -

a. I don't want to prove that ..it was all her mistake,,,,,

b. She still springs in my mind from time to time.....and i don't want it to happen,,,,as it makes my life hard,,,

The most pertinent question that comes to my mind again and again ......i mean i had invested with her my valuable time during college time,,,,which could have been given to various other stuff and persons...was all that time worth it ..?/

Should i forget her ? ,,,,i tried to do that many a time....but let me say,,it is not so easy.....!!!

c. I have never used that line "I will miss you ",,,to any of my opposite friends ,,after her......eventhough i wanted to say that ,,,,,but i become apprehensive about it..>!!!

d. I have become wary abt forwarding my emotions ,,i guess,,,,that is also hurting me..?

e. i want to note these feelings,,,and vent it out forever from my body...>?

f. I would like to show this to any of my prospective life partner !!!

To write abt the pros this relationship had to me :

** i Have stopped being too friendly with gals,,who have just broken off with thier EX...as i feel they need a lot of time with themselves,,before moving on !!!

** Even I have emotions .....yeh,,actually i never felt that i would feel so strong abt someone in my life...!!

** Interactions with her,,,as to what type of person i am,,,basically she has shown me a mirror ,,which has helped me in making opinions abt myself.....and some insights into what type of life partner,,if i have any in the future,,,,would suit me,!!!

** She made me feel LOVEABLE for some time >...i mean basically there are two types of people LOVEABLE AND NoT LOVEABLE I feel i am of the second type,,,,,but for sometime she gave me the feeling that i was loveable too///!

To her...."IF SHE IS READING THIS BLOG POST ??"

***Heroine....i did call you and SMS'ed you quite a few time in the past months...to which you have replied being busy,,,,,or you will contact me later...!!! I wanted to discuss all this....verbally,,,and not in written as the case is now...!!!,,

***This post in no terms is mean't to show you down....but it was just important for me to tell you my side of story,,,,rather than just keep it in my mind..wouldn't mind knowing your take on it.!!!

***I don't want to keep any grudge against you in myself,,,,rather than its better i communicate it to you..what say .?

**I can't write poems,,,or use complicated language ,,,in explaining my emotions in short,,,!

If you come across this blog post,,,,Wish you the best luck for your future aspirations and most importantly for your good health...!!!!!

*****....hoping you don't feel the ending to be too mushy,mot my intention*****

I am not sure whether i have posted my feelings as i had intended too......but would still go ahead and post it without re reading it....ITS really very tough to put emotions into words..!!

Reading now :

Japanese Wife : Kunal Basu

Movie Seen : Delhi-6

Listening to : Dhol Yaara Dhol from Dev D

Feeling lighter now ,,,, have to get up at 5 am for the oscars,,,go RAHMAN go,,,,!!!

Sayonara !

2009-01-12T23:52:00.004+05:30

Hi Miss Bloggy,

Just finished reading back some of my old blogs,,,

and the feeling after that (i mean after reading what i had written )???

I feel Nostalgic,,,ala filmi style.....b to be honest i was really impressed with writings and at the least with some of themm,,,

it does help in bringing out and reliving the emotions i was feeling then ,,,or the state of mind i was at that time while writing that particular blog ,,,and compare with what i have now....!!

I do feel that wish i had posted some photographs with some of the blogs,,,

Will start posting regularly back,,,,this time it would be more about how uncorporately i am living my corporate life,,,,office politics and other bull shits dumped in my life....@!

Saw a large no. of movies ,,will post about them,,,till then its .....

sayonara...!

I am Smiling,,,,

2008-12-04T22:32:00.001+05:30

Hi Miss bloggy,,,

I am alive (that seems to be a novelty ...nowadays).........and i Observed that I AM SMILING>>>>>>>>>>>>>!

Main Jahaan Rahoon....!

2008-10-23T19:32:00.004+05:30

My new abode :

HI MISS BLOGGY,,

WITHOUT ANY ADO;

NO, I am not going to write about the economic meltdown, Karzzzzzz or for that matter anything interesting,,,,,,

Yeh i am going to write about my whereabouts,,,,,

here we go,,,ole ole ole......(ricky martin zindabad)

1. I am writing this blog,,it means i am still alive....!!

2. Joined a Company Called RELIANCE ,,,haan woh Ambani wala,,,,,

yeh photo NEW YORK ka nahin hain,,its the refinery here a,,,and at night it looks more beautuiful than the photo shows..!

3. Working as a PROCESS DESIGN ENGINEER,,,,a profile i always wanted to work upon,,,,

4. Working on the project of building the world's largest refinery in a place called Jamnagar.

5. Corporate Life here seems easy,,for me it seems like an extension of college....meetings with no clear agenda,,,,,boss maskofying,,,,,,i have seen some part of it....!!

6. The decision of joining this job was not so ease,,,,was spoilt with choices,,,IBM softwares,,,,entrepreneurship..,,Reliance....?...had my heads(why plural..>?) scratching....!

7. At the end it seems okay.....has been a good exposure,,,,,

8. Beautiful Township here in Reliance greens , Jamnagar...!!!(will post a few pics)

More later,,,and this time regularly,,need to vent out a lot...

vent---reminds me of pressure relief valves,,,,,oofff...

Reading :

Brida - Paulo Coelho

Listening :

Yuvraaj : Dil ka rishta

Movies :

will watch private Ryan

Engineer ANKIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-15T07:16:00.002+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,

I mean i always felt that "I would never be those nostalgic type of guys.....!!!" ...but can't help it........after four years of hardwork put in,,,the innumerous nightouts....the playful time among friends,,,the tensions and stress of maintaing CGPA....getting a job,,,securing good marks in the competitive exams.....and the times of confusions about the future ,,,, not sure of where to go or not.............

atlast has cumulated with the words.... "ENGINEER Ankit Jain" ...i mean it does matter hugely to me ,,and more important securing it with good enough grades,,,i mean i have no regrets......and thats makes me proud of whatever i have achieved...>!!!

just returned back after a night out with a friend .....who is returning back to his home town finally today morning.........will miss those carefree moments with him and the time we enjoyed with the gang together.......>!!

life ahead as they all say will now be more serious and more scrupulous .....i mean when i say life would be serious ...,,it indirectly leads to me getting more serious about it......!!

with the vacation time before me joining any job,,its very important i get more efficient and productive.....!!!!!

thinking seriously on starting a full fledged productivity and fitness blog.,, i mean concerning more about my progress on these issues....>!!!

Anywayz need to get a short sleep,,,,
Er. Ankit. ,,,should i dare to introduce myself that way//...?

Procrastinate

2008-04-13T00:31:00.002+05:30

hi Miss Blog,

It is high time i post a blog,,,(for i guess with the superb memory that i have inherited,a few more days would be enough to erase off the password i had set for my Miss bloggy,)

the reason's possible for cutting off from the blogworld:

1. last semester of engineering, enjoying every bit of it.

2. was deadly busy with my project

3. i had no time to invest on the blog

4. didn't spend much time on the online world(internet)

out of the above four except the first one nothing holds true.

actually to sum up the last 2 months, i had the most free time i ever had in my engineering studies,

SO WHAT KEPT ME OFF FROM MY MISS BLOGGY?

well writers block would never the case with me, certainly not when i blog only about myself and my mundane life....!!!

actually have become really lazy,,,,, lazy to read any book ,,,lazy to read the editorials,,,,,don't feel the urge to do it,,,,,so wouldn't force myself to do it.....!!!!

though feeling the urge to do it now,,,,,i mean to read some good stuff,,,,some intelligent stuff,,,apart from the rakhi sawant and all the crap hindi channels that i watch,,,by hindi channels i mean the new s channel....

so the last line speaks about the mental level i am in right now....!!!!

don't know why ,,, but feeling the urge to write in a new blog,,,,,,i mean with some different url address to start afresh, though there is no reason whatsoever , lets see...!!!!

will blog, about my recent trip to goa,,,,,,,my kundli....yeh mom got made one for me,,,,.....!!!!

listening to:-

1. afterglow by inxs

2. pyar to hona hi hai by pakistani band surror , taken in the movie SUNDAY

not reading much though solving quite a bit of SUDOKU

movies:-

1. SUNDAY :- enjoyed it thoroughly

2. RACE:- enjoyed it

3.BLACK & WHITE:- shit.

4. CHILDREN OF HEAVEN :- one of the better film i have seen.

5. THE KITE RUNNER:- well made film, obviously not as deep as the book, even then good screenplay.

6. forgot the title ;- very interesting movie among the best 100 listed in imdb,

attended a concert by

Arvind Parikh - sitar player student of VILAYAT KHAN

Purvi Parikh :- vocalist , enjoyed them.

JASHN E BAHAARA

2008-02-28T23:20:00.003+05:30

(beauty personified>......fullstop)

hi MISS Blog,

not blogging much lately,,,,,,,,,last sem of engineering ........enjoying it.....

JASHN E BAHAARA....

take my bow RAHMAN........have been listening it everywhere.......bathroom,,while sleeping,,driving,,,,,while chatting with someone(in sub conscious mind),,,,trying to grasps its lyrics........

and lately,,,have started singing this song,,,,,at even a smalll chance.......front of friends,,,mom,,,....,,,,,(,their reaction..... you did a great job,,,,,in raping the song...!!)

here goes the celestial lyrics:-

Jashn e bahara

Kehne ko jashn e bahara hain
(To say its like a celebration of Spring)
Ishq yeh dekh ke hairaan hai
(Love is amazed to see this all)

Phool se khushboo khafa khafa hain gulshan mein
(The flower is annoyed with its fragrance in the garden)
Chupa hain koi ranjh fiza ki chilman mein
(There is an unseen grief behind the veil of the surroundings)
Saare sehmay nazaare hain soye soye waqt ke dhaare hain
(The scene around is filled with silence, Time drifts into a slumber/sleep)
Aur dil mein khoyi khoyi si baatein hain
(Some lost thoughts remain in the heart)

Kehne ko jashn e bahara hain
(To say its like a celebration of Spring)
Ishq yeh dekh ke hairaan hai
( Love is amazed to see this all)
Phool se khushboo khafa khafa hain gulshan mein
(The flower is annoyed with its fragrance in the garden)
Chupa hain koi ranjh fiza ki chilman mein
(There is an unseen conflict behind the veil of the surroundings)

Verse 1
Kaise kahein kya hain sitam
(How would one say whats the pain)
Sochte hain ab yeh hum Koi kaise kahe who hain ya nahi humare?
(I keep thinking about it now, that how would I know If she belongs to me or not?)
Karte to hai saath safar faasle hain fir bhi magar
(Though we journey together, yet there are some distances in between us)
Jaise milte nahi kisi dariya ke do kinare
(Just like how two banks of the river never meet)
Paas hai phir bhi paas nahi, Humko yeh ghum raas nahi
(We are so close yet so far, I cannot accept this despair at all)
Sheeshe ki ek deewar hai jaise darmiyaan
(Its like a wall of glass that divides us in between)

Saare sehmay nazaare hain soye soye waqt ke dhaare hain
(The scene around is filled with silence, Time drifts into a slumber/sleep)

Aur dil mein khoyi khoyi si baatein hain
(Some lost thoughts remain in the heart)

Verse 2
Humne jo tha nagma suna, dil ne tha usko chuna
(The song that I had heard was chosen straight from the heart)
Yeh daastan hume waqt ne kaisi sunayee
(But time hummed a different tale for us)
Hum jo agar hai ghumgeen, who bhi udhar khush to nahi
(If I am sad in here, she is not at all happy there)
Mulaqato mein hai jaisi ghul si gayee tanhayee
(Loneliness has filled up our meeting)
Milke bhi hum milte nahi, Khilke bhi gul khilte nahi
(We meet but we don’t unite, The flowers bloom but they don’t blossom)
Aankho me hain bahaarey, dil mein Khiza.
((My eyes envision Spring, but my heart senses the Autumn)

Saare sehmay nazaare hain soye soye waqt ke dhaare hain
(The scene around is filled with silence, Time drifts into a slumber/sleep)
Aur dil mein khoyi khoyi si baatein hain
(Some lost thoughts remain in the heart)

just saw "WHEN HARRY MET SALLY".......ALA HUM TUM's english version....enjoyed it....!!!!

reading :- economic times......yeh enjoying the budget stuff....!!!

sleepless nights.....yet again......!!!!

2008-01-25T02:19:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG<

good music + Euphoria's song + presentation to be made = sleepless night

Reading books:-

1. Creation of Wealth by RM Lala
2. A PAulo Coelho book:- by the river pedra.....don't remeber exactly.....!!!!

btw,,,,, moving to kolkatta for the next week for a cousin's wedding.......catch ya soon Miss bloggy....!!!

emotions gallore./..fullstop.

2008-01-18T00:49:00.000+05:30

so many questions..??????

had i been a good brother....???

perhaps no....perhaps yes......nah......don't know..???/,,

there were times when i just abhored my sis......times we went days without talking to each other....even vowed never to talk to each other.....promised each other we will not see each other's face.....can't remeber a single day without a fight with her...!!

the times when she went shopping for me ,,,,there itself i started shouting at her costly choices even though it were for me,,,,,,times when she bought expensive jeans for me,,,,,,

times when she would say "i feel dejected seeing your preferences,,Ankit.....get some class yaar....!!!"
times when she filled the engineering competition exam forms for me,,,,times when she bought for me costly rahman cd's,,,,watches,,,,, even jockeys,,,,,,she made my resume,,,my resume file......times when i banked on her suggestions for even the minutest thing......,,,,,!!!!!!!

i clearly remember the day when she dropped me at my science board examination center alongwith my mom.....and seeing me going to give a crucial exam,,seeing me tensed.....she started crying for me,,,,,times when she bought food for me during the interval of the AIEEE exam......and i started shouting..."why the hell was this needed for,,,,i am not a kid now.....!!!",

she had even filled my counselling forms.....she booked tickets for me standing at the ladies counter for railway reservations........!!!!!!......

i never thought i would feel this way.......i am missing her,,,,,not missing her,,,,actually tensed for her new life.....maybe tensed for i had been not good enough to her.,,,,.........don't know.....hey bhagwan........can't believe i would go thr' these wave of emotions..........don't know why........feel that i could have been a much much better brother.......I LOVE HER......love her like anything........may God bless you my sis.......blessed to have a sis like you.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

listening to :- piya haji ali.....>!!!!!!

Sissy Sis....!!!!

2008-01-12T23:04:00.000+05:30

hi MISS blog,,,

i guess,,,,my miss bloggy this time deserves something more elaborate than the usaul coined line "blogging after a long time"......certainly a full detailed explanation of me blogging after such a long time is a must.....!!!

IT WAS MY SISSY SIS's MARRIAGE.......her surname got changed on the
4th of Jan 2008 Friday......and by everyone's blessing the marriage went off smoothly....as a old enough younger brother of her's and a mature enough son of my dad.....was engrossed in organising the "THE BIG FAT INDIAN WEDDING".........And let me tell you one thing,,,,,arranging a marriage is really very very demanding......especially if you a 'KIDA'(bug) of checking everything personally....i was really bad at delegation..... !!!

though at the end i would just like to conclude:-

"there is nothing bigger than seeing your sis getting married,,,,,the only thing in my mind was checking everything was just perfect.........but i guess,,,,,,i don't think nothing in my life would be more important than my sister's marriage......and am really happy that i tried my best under my capacity.....!!!!!"

here are few pics :-

1. here is where the engagement and sangeet sandhya took place......the stage was co-designed by your's truly "ankit....!"

(the pic has been removed by the author)

2. God bless them...>!!!!!...pray for their well being.....nazar nahin lag jaye kisiki,,,,,...!!!!

(the pic has been removed by the author)

more shaadi pics later.....they have gone on their honeymoon trip...sis just called ,,,that she is enjoying a lot....!!!!!....may they have a happy life together...'Amin'........love them more than myself.....missing the fights with her........!!!

piss(ed) off....!

2007-11-20T21:47:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

i need to study,,,,i need to study frigging hard,,,,,i am bored of saying this stuff again and again,,,,,but saala life around me creates circumstances where it unintentionally comes out of my mouth.....!!!!!!!!

anywayz I AM pissed of something,,,,,,,,,,and if you think i am typing these words,,,,,,,TYPING...you are mistaken....bloody i am banging really hard on my sane bechara keyboard,,,,i guess i pity my keyboard,,,,,i mean it cannot even emote the atrocities its facing by my fingers............i guess these keyboards and mouse should be inbuilt with some mechanisms where it 'say ' starts giving shock(eh...electricity current ...) waves to its users when it is being mishandled,,,the perfect example of it being now....i mean the way i am using my keys....>!!!!!!!!!!!

i am sure,,i am making a big nonsense of myself,,,,and making it more limpid by writing piquing stuff.,,,,,,,,,and using these annoying extended comma's........wish it used to cost ,,,,,,,i mean using the punctuation marks on the blogger,,,,maybe i would have been more provident in using them.......!!!!!

before you all and even i go awry,,,let me kibosh this nonplussing stuff,,,,,,and get myself to normal........whooooaaaa.....i have broken into a smile now........hope everything is okay with my FACULTIES,,,ehh my mental health....>!!!

so all you beautiful guyz and gals out there,,,,,,,,,,wish me best luck for my exams,,,and hope that i stop using the stupid phrase ,,,i had started the blog with,,,and pray for the comma key of my keyboard,,,hope it survives my onslaught..,,hope it doesn't go to the (in)human rights commission....i am getting back to normal....will blog back after getting out of this buffonery state of my mind......and write something more trite,,and hackneyed.....!!!!

(added sometime later)
update:- watching the viDEO of JAANIYE,,,,,,from the film dus kahaaniyan.......can anyone show me the address of the gym where such beautiful girls can be viewed..........!!!

i am the epitome of being prurient...!!!

GRE AND BHELPURI....!!

2007-11-14T23:02:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,

blogging after a long hiatus.....anywayz delving into the mundane straightaway :-

1. LIFE IS BHELPURI:-

no haven't seen the film life is beautiful ,,,,,,the title just sprang up in my mind for just had a plate of bhelpuri,,,,,,and was thinking of life ahead,,,my all time favourite contemplative topic...>!!!

actually am passing through a beautiful and at the same time a very strange mode of life....!!!!
at the same time right now experiencing the best moments, the not so best moments of life.....i mean i am at a stage where i always wanted to be once...yet feel a bit of uneasiness,,,,,,,,anywayz am sure MERA DOST JO UPAR PARIYOON KE SAATH AISH KAR RAHAN HAIN.......SAB THIK RAKHEGA,,,i mean not only for me ,,,for each and everyone......(the philanthropist i am......)!!!

btw gave my GRE....got a pathethic score of 1210.......!!! anyone looking for some suggestions on HOW NOT TO PREPARE for GRE ,,,here it goes :-

1. VERBAL:- carries 800 marks,,out of 1600

a> learn the wordlists of barrons.......while learning NEVER think of trite stuff like ,,,
whether i will be using these words,,??,,,
whether the americans use them..??
your mind will throw at you all these stupid questions....intead cram all those words...there is no other way...>!!!

b.> practice from books like norman lewis,,,,,and other quizzes based on vocabs ,,it does help...>!!!!

2. REACH YOUR CENTER ATLEAST 1 HOUR BEFORE THE SCHEDULED EXAM :-i reached just about 15 minutes before...all the formalities in the center before the exam ,,,(checking the passport,,etc..) does take time !!

3. PRACTICE ATLEAST 5 FULL LENGTH MOCK TESTS.....i gave only sectional mock tests,,,,thereby sitting for the whole 4 HOURS during the exam,,,may perturb you!!!

4. MATHS :- a cake walk....even i scored almost full.....!!!!

ab na jaaa....revisited....!!!!

2007-10-09T01:28:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

1. AB NA JAA:-

well,,, there are certain things in life on which i do not have any control,,,,andsome of those things are getting up till late , and hearing music on my headphones....!!!!

and the combination of both of themmmmm.....is one just out of too much to control......atleast for me....!!!!

and another thing that i can be added to this uncontrollable stufff of my mind is

sitting in front of the comp like a owl in the night+ listening to music of EUPHORIA' s AB NA JAA ===== ME GETTING DEADLY ROMANTIC......!!!!

i guesss its high time that i unabashedly accept it...!!!

especially this song of PALASH SEN .......ab na jaa.....!!!! i really feel that this song has perhaps the power even to make hitler get romantic !!!

and btw romantic in the night doesnt mean.....wo wallah romantic generally felt by MR. shakti kapoor and the gulshan grovers in their numerous films......!!!

but its woh wallah romantic.....in which you don't need to feel the touch of your special one.....but you rather yearn for her presence......and maybe just keep gorging over her.....!!!!

Maybe hold her by her hands and break into a sudden dance.....!!!......and end up smiling looking at her.....!!!!!

yuck........... really peevish.......my fantasizing really sucks,,,,but as i said ,,can't help it........this song makes my head go all in a zany stage....!!!

here goes the lyrics :-

Aankhen band kar loo jo mein

dekhu bas tumhe

khwabo mein hi keh sakta hoon

apna tumhe

rehne de mera yeh vehm pe hi yakeen

naa ja abhi

pyar ki yeh raat hain

ab na jaa

chotti si ek baat hain

ab na jaa

tumhhi se hain meri neende

naa bhi ho to kya

tumhi see hain meri battein

naa bhi ho to kya

kehne do taaro ko kahani ankahi

na jaa abhi

pyar ki yeh raat hain

ab na jaa

chotti si ek baat hain

ab na jaa

pal do pal ka saath hain

ab na jaa

jadoo si yeh raat hain

ab na jaa

maathe pe pyar ki boonde

bikhre se kai sawal

aankhon mein kitne mausam

pal mein beete kitne saal

rehne de jahan bhi le jaaye zindagi

na jaa abhi

pyar ki yeh raat hain

ab na jaa

chotti si ek baat hain

ab na jaa

pal do pal ka saath hain

ab na jaa

jadoo si yeh raat hain

ab na jaa

closing the player.....and getting to sleep ,,,cya.....good night MISS BLOG,,,,,!!....!!!!!

VIDEO POSTED.....AB NA JAA......mesmerizing,,,,, perfect video for a superb song......have a look at it....!!!!...!!!

movies , musiq and masti .......!!

2007-10-03T00:27:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

YET another 'night blog' ,,,,,,,, eh......maybe ' late blog',,,,,or 'sleepy blog'......i guess,,,,,you must have got an idea of what i mean to say..........."that i am in a nocturnal state".....!!!!!!

actually feeling very yappy....in an elated mood.....!!!

why??....

to keep it short and not wasting time on any gaudy and tawdry talks,,,,,

1.>>>MOVIES:-
after a long search atlast got my hands on the VCD of a film i wanted to see eagerly,, THE GUIDE (starring dev anand , 1965 released..)...wanted to see the film after reading the nov on which the film is based THE GUIDE BY RK NARAYAN .......mainly for two reasons:-

1. the novel , i thought was a little ahead of time,,,,, philandering wife,,,,in 1960's...live in relationship.....in 1960's......multi layered feminine protagonist,,......and the complex and multi faceted role of RAJU the guide(played by dev anand),,,,just read these dialogues written in 1965....

" Raju : Mujhse Byah Karogi ( Will you marry me .)

Rosy : Hanh, Tumhare Liye Mein Apna Pesha Chhod Doongi ( Yes, I shall leave my career for you )

Raju : Iski Naubat Nahin Aayegi, Isme Hum Dono Ki Mehnat Hai ( No need to do that, Both of us have worked hard for it )

Rosy : Aur Shaadi Ke Baad Jab Bacche Ho Jayenge To ( What about children )

Raju : Zaroori To Nahin Ke Shaadi Ke Baad Bacche Ho Jaye ( No need to have children right away )

Rosy : Zaroori To Nahin Ke Shaadi Ho Jaye ( No need to get married, is there ?). "

in fact ROSY......the name itself strikes a cord.....!!!!

to give a short review of this film :-

1. DEV ANAND :- played the lead role of the novel.....is also the producer of the film....!!!!

yes he is the same person who is usaully the center of tons of spoofs and caricatures ,,,,,infact its his first film that i am seeing....!!!

now to describe or rate him as actor :- TOP NOTCH, FANTABULOUS.....he truly as all say has epitomized the role of GUIDE......!!!

he has convincingly enacted the role,,,which required him to go through phases such as cunning and witty GUIDE,,,,confused man,,,a good friend,,,,,a steely determined guy,,,,a lost man,,and atlast a pensive SWAMI.....!!!

2. WAHEEDA RAHMAN:-

yeh had heard it loads of time of her dancing prowess,,,,her natural beauty by my mom, and grand ma.....and after watching the film....i am also convinced about it.!!!

infact she had the most difficult role to play.........and after watching her acting skills combined with the directorial efforts of VIJAY ANAND.....i can only say....that they both have infact given a more logical drama to her character than what i had concieved after reading the novel......kudos to them...!!!

her conflicts with her impotent husband MARCO (played by kishore sahu).....was just brilliantly scripted.....and not at any point over the top...>!!!

3. SONGS:-

MUSIC IS GIVEN BY SD BURMAN>>>
LYRICS BY SHAILENDRA

A.>AAJ PHIR JEENA KI TAMANNA HAI-Lata Mangeshkar(today i want to start living my life again)

”Dar Hai Safar Me Kahin Kho Na Jaoon; Raasta Naya,”

(Meaning: I am scared that I’ll get lost in this road of happiness, because I have never traveled on it before)

Aone lyrics by shailendra.....

beautifully choreographed song,,,,,,,i mean its truly legendary....!!!

B>Gaata Rahe Mera Dil - Kishore Kumar and Lata Mangeshkar

one of my fav. romantic songs.....the lyrics is just awesome.....innocent,,pristine...!!!

’’Pyar karne Vale, Are Pyar Hi Karenge
Jalne Wale Chahe Jal Jal Marenge’’

highly romantic song...!!!

C>Piya Tose Naina Laage Re - Lata Mangeshkar

’’Piya Tose Naina Laage Re
Naina Laage Re
Jaane Kya Ho
Ab Aage Re’’

this song just proves why is LATA ji known to be legendary......

the song is sung by a women imagining her lover and also confeessing her love for him..>!!!

d>Dhin Dhal Jaaye Haaye – Mohd. Rafi

just read one line of the lyrics :--

“Tum Mujhse Main Dil Se Pareshaan,”
(Meaning: You are tired of me. I am tired of my heart)

sung by a lonely lost lover.....striking...!!!

"the film does exceedingly well in adapting to the original novel,,,though at times does better i bringing the emotions to its viewers ,,,full marks to the scriptwriter(i guess its written by RK NARAYAN himself...), and the director..VIJAY ANAND....especiallydirecting the scenes where raju acts as the swami..!!!."

my suggestion:- reading the novel first would be preferred anytime,,,,though seeing the film without reading the book would suffice......but will be felt sluggishly slow at times (has a length of around 3 hrs....!!!)!!!

(thankful to the song reviews elsewhere from where i got the lyrics....!!!)

2.> HAD MET MY FRIENDS OF THE DAYS WHEN I WAS PREPARING FOR ENTRANCE EXAMINATIONS.......they had come to ahmedabad and then to my place at surat......had a rollicking time ,,,remembering those days of fighting out with books day in and out....!!!

had a great time....it started from where we had left.....the best thing.......photos will be posted later...!!!

3.> reading :- THE GOD FATHER by mario puzo........enjoying it....!!!!

4.> LISTENING TO GREAT MUSIC NOW:-

A>. ROZANA :- nishabd
sung by AMITABH BACHHAN...music by VISHAL...looking forward to his next release NO SMOKING...!!!

B> JUNOON :- ABHIJEET SAWANT///

still can't believe that he has sung this senseful song....!!!

c.> WISEMAN :- JAMES BLUNT

it has been set as my message alert tone....like how the song starts....!!!

PARYUSHAN

2007-09-26T23:32:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,

plethora of stuff going in my prevalent mind , anyways before it proliferates more , let me shed some of my colloquial and plebian stuff out here,,,,,

1. MICCHAAMI DUKADAM

the tongue twister is in Sanskrit and it basically means "please forgive me , for if by any chance i have hurt you..or intended to hurt you..."

well actually the last ten days we (means the followers of 'JAINISM') had our festival basically called PARYUSHAN ......it is basically a ten day long event where the central idea is to ask for forgiveness and forgive others........during these ten days we 'ought' to follow some set of rules and also listen to the preachings of our religious pedagogue,

in short its basically a festival where we try to look inside ourself and vacuum clean our heart and soul of all the ill feelings , confusions , etc...!!

how is this achieved.... ?

as i said we follow a set of rules ,(though its not compulsory......!) the rules actually are basically leading to the exercise of self restrain and controlling the senses(read ...sensual pleasure...!)

so what did i do?

as i said earlier its a ten day festival :-

i on my part:-

1. HAD A FAST CONTINUOUS FOR THE FIRST THREE DAYS :-

here fast means shedding or restraining oneself from taking any type of solid food,,,,

i did follow it , did not take anything except around 2 glasses of warm water each day....!!

2. WANTED TO FOLLOW THE FAST FOR THE NEXT TEN DAYS:-

..this is the toughest type of penence one can follow during paryushan....my cousins have done it.....i wanted to do it.....as on the fourth day morning, i was feeling full of energy after doing puja's and all other stuff.......but have my exams coming up.....andmom warned ,"your body will atleast 15 more days to recuperate after fasting continuously for 10 days drinking just 2 glasses of water..."

3. had only food once in the whole day for the next 6 days..ie on the fourth day had just milk ... :-

milk once in the evening and once in morning...!!

4. also participated in all the chores ... PRATIKAMAN and ABHISHEK:-

PRATIKAMAN:- asking GOD for forgiveness for all the sins i had committed knowingly or unknowingly

ABHISHEK: - its done in the morning where we jave to wear sacred clothes(dhoti and dupatta), yeh i know how to wear a dhoti ,,,though still not perfectly,,but its enough not to move down from its place...!!

didnt had anything after sunset,,no potatoes and no onions, eat everything home made,

and tried to be away from music, movies, cricket and also talking unnecessary...while attending colleges, etc...!!!

WHAT HAS IT DONE TO ME?

WELL can't be described in words, but certainly have understood the power of discipline, have realised the power we have inside us,,both physically and mentally.....anywayz more on this later...!!!

INTENTION OF WRITING THIS POST?

no ,,its not to sound ostentatious about what i have done......but its just to keep it as a reminder personally,,,,,especially when i start doubting over my self belief and when i feel getting addicted towards wordly pleasurees,,,,,reminding me that i was able to keep myself away from it....!!!

occluding my post here......!!!

BLUE UMBRELLA ...!!

2007-09-15T22:14:00.000+05:30

FILMS gaped at:-

1. BLUE UMBRELLA:-

Atlast got my hands on this much awaited film....

why the eagerness ?

it's a film directed by one of my favourite director VISHAL BHARADWAJ.....actually as a music director i would rate him a notch ahead then his directorial abilities....!!

about the film:-

adapted from the RUSKIN BOND novel by the same name....the film is set on the himachal pradesh landscapes....to be precise in a village out there where the panchayat rules are followed.....!!

the film revolves around a BLUE UMBRELLA,,which is the centre of attraction and envy among the villagers and is possessed by a bubbly village girl played by SHREYA SHARMA.....though the pint sized girl doen't have much of dialogues...but she had to show various shades of emotions which she has done it perfectly,,,infact her face has something charasmatic.....stays on the mind....!!

now coming to the main character ....PANKAJ KAPOOR....playing the stingy owner of a tea stall named KHATRI Ki DUKAN......he is depicted as a old man,,,,who due to financial problems had to start the tea stall at the early age of seven.. missing his childhood fun and studies too......!!!

thereby he is still enchanted by the childish things like binoculars,,,,,,ets...its a story of his obsession towards this blue umbrella.....and how he ends up being ostrasized from the village for his stealing of the blue umbrella...!!!

though the story sounds too one dimensional ,,, but actually has various layers onto it.....

PANKAJ KAPOOR:-

FLAWLESS perfomance,,,,his dialect,,,,his expressions ,,,his body language,,,,just perfect..... I GUESS...IF AMITABH BACCHAN DESERVED the national honours for his role in BLACK....then this perfomance of his deserves NOTHING LESS,,,,,three cheers for him...kudos for the director VISHAL BHARADWAJ....!!

BLUE UMBRELLA is actually the symbol of desire,,,,,and the film shows where 'desires' lead us to..!

MUSIC :-
AASMANI CHHATRI.....the title song is beautifully penned by GULZAR......the backgrounds are just mind boggling...!!!

A MUST WATCH .....its already taken into my favourite movies library...>!!!!!!

ALT+TAB...!!

2007-09-08T23:30:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,

for a change the title to this blog post was given before hand by me.......!!!

it actually covers the essence of what i have been going through....!!!!

1. MOUSE:-

well from the last few days ,,,,, my mouse (abbey....computer wala.... :-) ).... stopped running.....i guess its port has given up/////.......can't blame it..... it's around 7 years old//.......and glad most of the time it had been faithful to me.... well from my side ,,i feel sad i didn' t take enough care of cleaning once in a while....!!!

cleaning...mouse......???/ ..have you gone nuts ..ankit//?!

yeh,,,i actually i am using the mouse type which had a mouse ball behind it......unlike the optical one used normally nowadays.....!!

even its wires have got badly coiled up.......!!!

now ,,,i guess bantering about such a trivial hardware component called 'mouse' doesn't make sense....but don't know why .....i loved the mouse....(hate to use the word 'loved'....!!)....

maybe 'ONE' of my sons/daughters and his/her sons will read this tawdry blog post some day,,,and get to know what sort of technology i had used...... with the same fascination with which today we look at the huge gramophone's our grandpa's used during their times,,,,and then feel lucky about our touchscreen ipods......

talking about my sons.....??

it reminds me that i am 21, and still haven't had a decent peck on my cheeks...,,, and here i am talking about my next generation.........heights of moron ity(or is it desperity..?).... ...!!!!

in short :- if anyone wants to know the shortcut keys of keyboard,...can consult me......MOUSE less....has atleast taught me the importance of 'ALT' and 'TAB'....!!!!

listening to :-

1. TADAP TADAP :- from the film DARLING///....sung(crooned ) by himeshji......i guess this is one of the songs where he has done the longest.. "ooooooooooo oooooooooooooo oooooooo.... " ... he sounds the most melodius when he does that,,,,,, JAI MATA DI...LETS ROCK.....ughhhhh......!!!

using shift tab..here i go.....!!!

books......!!!

2007-08-21T23:07:00.001+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

A> BOOKS:-

finished reading THE KITE RUNNER :- by Khaled Hosseini

HAD BOUGHT THE BOOK on instincts
a> the title of book attracted me instantly....
b> reading the purport given on the back of the book......

AND i guess it proved very profitable....its one of the good books among all that i have read (it consists of a very small list... :-) )

the story is based upon primarily the lives of two families in afghanistan.....

its a story of redemption......and i enjoyed it thoroughly......the story did grip me.... i like fiction which are based on strong characters....and with underlying philosophical thoughts......!!!!

the story can be easily adapted to a bollywood 'masala' blockbuster.....though i guess....a hollywood film is already being made on the book.....!!!...it does grip us...wit the description of the afghani people ,their customs,,,the strong characters,,,,and atlast the redemption part....!!!

wanted to write a full fledged review on the book,,,,,but it has been quite some time i have read it...,,,, will go thr' the book once again...and come up with a complete review....!!!

overall the book did leave me in a contemplative mood at the end of reading...and does have a lasting effect...sign of a good write up ... ..a book highly recommended for a read...!!!

B.> THE GUIDE :- by RK Narayan
(caution :- spoilers presented)

the author starts well in setting up the fiction...... it is based on the life of RAILWAY RAJU......who starts with a stall on the platform,,,,converts into a GUIDE.....falls in love (or rather lust) with one of his clients ROSIE.....whose husband doesn't pay any attention to her....so she falls or rather attracts RAJU to herself and both bonk each other till the husband finds about it and abandons her....!!!!!

but then it shows the other side of RAJU....who accepts ROSIE to her house....and how he helps ROSIE work on her passion of dancing....and ends up making her a celebrity...a national renowned bharat natyam dancer....!!..!!!

he ends up in a JAIL....and comes back to be taken by a set of village as a SWAMI....then starts the journey of he giving spiritual discourses, blessings, teaching the village students,,,to the village people...who start considering him as their saviour from the drought that strikes the village....he is believed to be a man of GOD...!!.....!!!!!

the author keeps the character very unidimensional.......the character of ROSIE....is depicted in a vague manner...the mental conditions and the psychology of the characters should have been made more prominent .....!

a good read,,,,saw the rushes of the 'superhit' film based on this book THE GUIDE by NAV KETAN FILMS...DEV ANAND depicts RAILWAY RAJU....and ROSIE is played WAHEEDA RAHMAN.......and it really felt convincing...with minor changes,,,,,DEV ANAND as RAILWAY RAJU seems to have done great justice to the character depicted by the author...actually i really felt that he bought more SHADES to the character....and the scenes of him as a SWAMI...were top notch...will try to grab the full movie DVD....!!!

overall a good read...!!!

AT PRESENT READING:-

A> bought a AYN RAND.....WE THE LIVING......!!!
B> enjoying BHAGWAD GITA......fascinated by the depth of thoughts and 'way of life' that should be flollowed........

written during those ancients times...i mean it still has a huge amount of relevance in todays KALYUG...ala CYBER AGE..some of the verses,,does leave some impact on me....leaves me thinking quite a few times... .!!!

especially,,,,dil chahta hai,,,,!!

2007-08-18T01:24:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

(mood:- ......expect sth nonsensical.....feeling deadly sleepy,,,,,.whew...!!!! )

had a pure non-hectic day.....the next two days are to be the same.....thankfully the unit tests are starting by next week,.,,,,,,(when was the last time i said that......!!!)....

have a early morning schedule tomm......and here i am ,,,,,,blazing my way to glory.....saw three 'bollywood ' films back to back.....yeh and i am still surviving.....actually saw them in the fast forward mode...mazaa aayaa.!!!

schedule for tomm:- get up early,,,,half an hour brisk walk........and then plan or rather motivate myself...to do sth more constructive....!!!

ending yet again 'soonewala blog'.....!!!!

god bless me...!!!

..i need 'it' the most...... :-) !!!

SEXY India and PROSTITUTION

2007-08-15T15:31:00.000+05:30

STILL SEXY AT 60

wait...think...about the above tag line......

well that was the headline of the bombay edition of supposed to be INDIA'S most read national paper 'TOI'....EH....Times Of India.....!!

though for various reasons i call it 'my toilet paper'.....not sounding too derogatory...but it is a fact...it is my fav. reading material at my fav. s(h)itting place......!!!

coming back to the headline....the paper showed the page it had printed during the actual D-DAY 15TH AUG. 1947......(then headline : birth of india's freedom..)

along with it.....it had facts and figures to prove that india had indeedly become SEXY by now.....it showcased...the INCREASE IN pay of an IAS........the increase in the life expetancy...the increase in the defence budget.......etc...!!

now all these is fine... i mean it has tried to make us feel good about our 60 yrs of independance.......but the real show starts now.....

the other news which it has reported..:-

1.left and PM ...."left" here means a communist ideology led mockery party.....

both sit for breakfast, have good time, have tea....and forgot to get a common decision on the more imp. NUCLEAR 123 deal.....
i guess its time the 'left' starts looking at the larger picture.......but do they have the vision to do that..?>????

2. a shiv sainik caught red handed carrying arms and ammunition during 1993 riots....and still no case is being pushed against him...hope Sanju baba is listening...?

3. want get into the more substandard and negative reports 'TOI' has reported to make us feel bad....!!

but this is one report which caught my eye,,,,,actually due to the pic the article carried....!!

(pictorial descrpition :- a - cross- legged-fe-male-wearing-a-mini-skirt,,,)(eh..shows the degree of how sex starved i am....!!)

anywayz the artcile had the headline tag

FOR BETTER LIFESTYLE, MANY UPPERCLASS MIDDLE CLASS HOUSEWIVES IN GUJARAT(read AHMEDABAD) TURN TO PROSTITUTION
with one of the quote of a housewife named meeta (a resident of NAVRANGPURA, ahmedabad,owns two swanky cars, a classy flat,etc..) "my husband's business failed , when his income started drying up,i was made to sleep with his friends and business contacts to keep our lifestyle.IT'S BETTER THAN BEGGING..." "INITIALLY it felt creepy about my husband pimping for me,but then it was better than begging for my son's future.I HAVE MADE PEACE WITH MY FATE."said meeta. MEETA'S sons are in US...for higher studies....and it states it was possible all because of the money she earned from prostitution.

and there was another example of anushka....whose husband was happy and comfortable with her wife's job(read prostitution)...for it helps him getting funds for his travel business...and his son's education being funded in australia......!!! now actaully after reading the article i was left sitiing numb over the pot for a few min....actually not able to digest the article...first i thought it was all made up........but it did reflect one thing ,,,,,that we have become overly materialistic over the 60 years of independence....

1. we the youngsters of this country NOW need a beautiful GF /BF as soon as we start figuring whats the basic difference between the anatomy of a girl and a boy.....and all you need to find one .....is a stupid GMAIL account and an invitation to the webworld of finding lost friends...!!

2. everyone needs an
IPOD/IPHONE/LAPTOP/
A RETIREMENT SCHEME READY/
A FORIEGN VACATION EVERY YEAR/SWANKY RAVE PARTIES TO ATTEND/
INCREASE OUR SCRAPS ON A STUPID SO CALLED SOCIALISING WEBSITE/
AN NRI STATUS/IF NOT THEN GET MARRIED TO ONE NRI/

WELL actually to prove the above point is the booming sales of the A class of luxury stuff like cars/watches/clothes/,ETC in INDIA.....!!!

THE MAIN intention of writing this stupid shit.....is not to show case 'it is not good to be materialistic'....but rather it is to highlight the 'speed and the extent to which we are all falling under the sense gratified pleasures'///...and it does include me......!!!

but the above article on 'housewives turning prostitute' is i guess the extreme case.....and i am still not ready to digest if the article can be true atleast in INDIA......

1. prostitution for surviving/ prostitution b'cos being forced into it/b'cos of circumstances and trapped into it......is understandable...though it shows the acme of human atrocities.....

but the reasons given for prostitution here.....:-

1. maintain the lifestyle (bullshit.....lifestyle...cars, furnished flats,mobiles....ughhh/.....)

2. husbands pimping their wives to their business contacts and freinds...(and they belong to the upper class......sure..!)

3. sons studying in US AND AUSTRALIAN universities(and that too for higher studies....guess the sons do have the intellect to know by now what their parents are upto......and where the money is coming to pay them their college fees........what sort of education it is....what sort of son's they are....???)

i really cannot digest all this...!!!!

though on the other side,,,,there are also men turning into GIGOLOS....i hope the spelling is right....'turning into one'....again for the above materialistic pleasures.....!!!!

i guess....we have come along well ahead .....in the last 60 years..... for previously we survived for ROTI/KAPDA AUR MAKAAN,......but now it is BUFFET/ BRANDED KAPDA AUR LUXURY MAKAAN...... (eh...i know it sounds cheesy///)!!!!

b> my share of independence:-

yes,,,,few years ago..when i had just been out of my teens..and started shavng...... i had kept a GOATEE......my 'typical' mom strictly said..." if you want to keep that small stuff////....find a place outside my house...."
then some time back i came out of the bathroom,,,adoring a new found "FRENCH BEARD"...my father forced me.....to reenter the bathroom and shave it off/////

but yesterday......"my french beard" found an acceptance among my parents......yes..i am keeping a light french beard.....and suddenly it seems my 'sex rating' among my peers has increased.....i mean most of them complimented of it looking good...!!

thats my share of getting in-dependance...!

kicking life hard.......!!!

2007-08-11T23:20:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

"if my mind can concieve it, and my heart can believe it....i know i can achieve it..!!"

its so very imp. as an individual you respect yourself more,,,and stop being over impressed by others....i mean there is a diff. respecting someone's talent.....while,,being super awe'd by them......and that has been the case with me..... !!

won't elaborate it more...
..but have started feeling confident of myself, my abilities..,,the key to it is being honest with myself........!!!

it's so very imp. to get up each day,,,and look forward to live it fully...,,,,, actually the most imp. thing is being passionate with the stuff you do,,,,,and sleep each day with the feeling of doing the things which you want to.....even though it may be less rewarding...!!!

listening to:-

1. konjum mainakkale from the film Kandukondein kandukondein "tamil " composed by AR RAHMAN .....aishwarya 'bachhan' starrer..... view the video of this song on youtube.....superbly picturised...soothing.......!!

munbe vaa!!!

2007-08-08T01:31:00.000+05:30

WHO IS THIS

I came out alone on my way to my tryst.
But who is this that follows me in the silent dark?

I move aside to avoid his presence but I escape him not.

He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger;
he adds his loud voice to every word that I utter.

He is my own little self, my lord, he knows no shame;
but I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company.

- Rabindranath Tagore

hi MISS BLOG,

MUNBE VAA :-

abbey,,sounds like a harry potter magical mantra.....actually is the song to which i am hooked,,,and for a change it is in TAMIL.....!!!,,,,

north meets south...:- actually that speaks the greatness and expertise of this man AR RAHMAN......that compels not only me but scores of people listen to his music lyrics of which is nothing but a series of magical shlokas,,,,,but who cares.....!!!

though have been lucky to find friends ready to translate them into english or explain me the setting of the songs....!!!

tamil song i am listening too:-

1. new york nagaram :- based on the theme similar to that of (DIL CHATA HAIN TANHAYEE)....sung by the masterman himself....AR RAHMAN......a sure chartbuster if released in hindi...!!!

2. kama kama;- a funky song.....makes me wear my sneakers ,,,,,raise my hands.....and shake my pelvic bones.....a song based on the college life,,,,would be a bigger hit than PAATHSHALA ...if released with hindi lyrics.........don't know why the song brings a smile whenever i hear it...!!.!!!

3.. munbe vaa:- just note the orchestration......only GOD can compose such a music...especially the jal tarang used in the starting of the song........mind blowing...!!!!!!

wish knew the tamil language,,,,,just for this man AR RAHMAN...!!!

2. literature:-

okay enough of IDOL WORKSHIP.....can go on and on...!!!

met some time back DR. ASHWIN DESAI a phD in politics and philosophy......had a discussion on LITERATURE with this 64 yet 20 guy.....i mean to say stilll very young much at heart,,,he epitomised 18 till i die.....!!!!

so this guy knew everything,,,,the indian classical ,the russian,the spanish, the german...,,,the english,,indian regional classsical right from kasmiri to tamil all literature.....!!!

the discussion was mainly on what is literature,,,,,,mostly he explained the concepts like love, and otehr human natures,,,,using verses,,,and explained how ,,,,,beautifully one can communicate....using imagination,,,,and that is basically nothing but taught by literature........for a moron like me,,,,,poetry and poem verses are something which is skipped religiously by me,,,,whenver it makes an occurence in front of me...!!!!

but from the past few months......odd stuff like.....

1. viewing romantic song videos,,,,,has become a fav. time pass for me...!!!
(top secret:- i had seen sometime back the latter half of a film called JAANEMAN(akshay,salman priety starrer).....and i had enjoyed the movie even to my own surprise......).....even watched salaam namaste and even enjoyed the movie.....hoping all my hormones(chemical loccha..!) are in correct balance,,,?>

its no surprise that i have been reading or taking some interest in the beautifully written verses which used to sound like b-grade film dialogue's to me previously...!!....!!!

2. have been reading occasionally the BHAGWADA GITA (translated one), works of rabindranath tagore...one pasted above.....loved the poem....!!!

will write about it more...!!!

FLAG POINT 1......!!!!!

2007-08-05T00:34:00.000+05:30

"Vision without Action is a Day Dream.
Action without Vision is a Nightmare. " -japanese proverb

so the above quote says it all,,,actually life right now for me seems to be a perfect combination of both, so logically i have been most of the time day dreaming or rather experiencing nightmares...!!!!

day dreaming about my do's....but not converting it into actions.....and most importantly thinking or focussing on stuff which should be given least amount of my concern and energy....resulting into nightmares!!!

but the best creation according to me that GOD has made is,,,,,rotation of the earth..... i.e........

the creation of day and night....!!!

thereby each day helps us to start on a new note,,,with more vigour,,,,..or as the saying goes...
"Its never too Late."

my new semester has started and therefore have been feeling quite a bit of urge of jotting down my priority lists.
the most important lesson that i have learnt or felt till now,is that a genuinely successful person according to me ,is not the one who is extremely successful only in his profession or in the work he does...
but more imp. successful according to me is the one who has kept a balance in most of life's aspect.. i.e.
he has been a good employee,
he has been a great son, a great husband ,a great father,
he has taken out time for his passions,
kept himself physically and mentally fit!

and certainly any unrest in any of the above marked points can only lead to doom...or unbalance life...!!!!

"the biggest obstacle is the distance between our ears."
-author unknown

thereby have divided my to-do's into several pockets:-

1. short term goals:-

A . ACADEMICS:-

a> concentrate on my subjects:- getting into the last year of my graduate life,,,have been lucky enough to have those subjects in which i have interests....infact the subject i am looking forward to carries the highest credit...so its quite necessary to do well in it....rather than taking it as yet another subject attitude ...that i had perenially adopted till now..!!

b> increase my aptitude ..have made an action plan for it...will be honest with it...!!!

c> increase my vocabs and especially its usage,,,repeating words again and again does make the conversation dull.....(and can be strikingly observed going thr' my blogs...will be more conscious of avoiding it...!!!)...i mean it has been due to lack of it that haven't been able to communicate the way it needed to be...!!!

d> listenning to new sounds,,especially in the genre of classical , soft rock, pop and even the sugar coated romantic one's (don't know why...have been hearing loads of those nowadays ///... :-) )
d1> view new visuals....i mean apart from those mundane music videos, widen it to more on my fav. sports, fav. personality... AR RAHMAN , FEDERER, JORDAN, BIRD, NAYAN GHOSH, !!

e> read more books....reminds me that have been keeping pending THE GUIDE, PAPILLON....actually do want to read it rather than just for the sake of it,,,,,,had recently finished THE KITE RUNNER.....a book review on it has been kept pending from quite some time...!!!

B. PHYSICAL:-

on a positive note have been following a regime from quite some time....and started to see its efffect.....i guess its time i become more strict with it......i.e stop gulping those unnecessary mushy looking food stuff.....it has been hard but quite worth it...!!!

have been hitting the gym lately,,,though with the start of college,,,it will be tough...but i will try to sort it out....!!!

apart from that....will keep continuing my love for cycling,,,,stretching ,,etc...!!

want to learn a type of martial art,, tai chi. maybe...will do it as soon as the sem ends...!!!

have learnt from the past month's practices,,,,,the key to anything is discipline.....and it requires heavy duty motivation to stick to it.....will HAVE to be more concscious of my habits or rather developing good habits,...!!!

C>SPIRITUALLY AND MENTALLY:-

a. want to get into meditation..was into it quite a while ago.....maybe twice a week,,,..i guess priority to it is more than hitting the gym.....
the most thing i dread about myself....is when i am at a state when my small mind is filled with confusions....and off lately it has been mostly that way.....have to be more sure of myself.....and even if taken a not so correct decision ,i should be prepared for its consequences rather than gettign feared abt it...!!!

b. be more observant than judgemental

c. mentally i guess...i need a certain make-over...... align my self belief, increase my self esteem, be more focussed, settle some of my thoughts....!!!

d. and lastly stop introspecting now...need to get into actions...!!!!

D>SOCIALLY:-

A. ANOTHER most aspect ,,in fact has to be given the priority.....have been a very bad social animal.....

b. i am an introvert , and i guess there is no need to change it , its something with which i feel comfortable....but surely there have been numerous times where i have stopped myself , or maybe felt lazy,,,communicating with others when i wanted to....!!!!!

c. have made a list of 6 persons to whom i will divert my energy.....that includes,,,my MISS BLOGGY too....>!!!!!and btw....tommorow IS

MY MISS BLOGGY'S birthday.......and the only thing i can say abt my BLOG,,,is that it has been the one best thing that i am most proud ,,,,,i mean each and every second with my MISS BLOGGY,,,,has been the biggest investment i have made....have no regrets for it......!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i feel this is one blog,,,,to which i would like to revert back again and again...........i am sure it will help me in motivating myself and act as a reminder to keep me on the track....!!!!!

GOD bless me...!!!

muaaaaahhhhhhh....!!

2007-07-03T02:32:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

so yet another random post from my side,,,,,mundane.,,,,non sensical ....but i love this kind of post...which helps one experience the emotions go thr'.....the one's that one would like to re experience......and my MISS BLOGGY helps me do that exactly ...why am feeling happy......varied reasons...a post on it later....!!

anywayz returned back from a movie wth mom and dad....APNE...first half was good...second half was too filmy to handle...but enjoyed seeing MOM's expressions..while the boxing scenes were going on...!!!!

listening to EK MOHABBAT...the TAJ ANTHEM SONG ....composed by the living GOD AR RAHMAN.....!!!

its about 3 am,,,,and have a hectic day tomm.(actually today!) starting 5 :30 am...!!!

and btw if anyone of you have not still voted for the lovely TAJ MAHAL...(.its one of the place on the small list of places my MOM wants to visit.).. go and see the video of EK MOHABBAT ON youtube......and you will be compelled to vote for the lovely monument.....!!!

i have done it ,,, sms TAJ to 4567.....!!!!!

chalo aavjo ...!!!

yeh,,,,

cultural shock......!!

2007-06-27T01:10:00.000+05:30

(NO ITS NOT A mf hussain painting...:-

its nature's abstarct...clicked by a VGA CAMERA..can't believe myself....taken by me while waiting for a friend under a tree,,,,!!! loved the feel of the red leaf, the twigs, the soil colour,,wierd...!! )

hi MISS BLOG,,

back to old ways it seems,,,,,the last three days have been back to keeping late nights......

had been sleeping the whole of evening....!!!

as usaul had a discussion with my sis just sometime back,,,and as more usaul,,,she ended pushing me out of her room,,,
sugar coated words like "dimaag mat kharab karo!!"(for the english understanding junta it means "brains don't bug " with better grammatical sense it means "don't bug my brains...? "),,,"clean your rooms , thoda aadmi ke tarah raho"("behave a bit like human beings?")

as can be noticed the level of respect and admiration she has for me,,,,she loves me a lot....!!!

the other bookmark questions and suggestions she gave me during the highly evolved discussions...:-

"ankit i guess you smoke,,,you smell like as if you have just come from a cigareete factory.??.!!!" "anki, you need to start meditations ......you will need it when you start your boring job next year....!!!"
also it included a heated topic on ethics,,,,

where i was suggesting her how she should be less honest towards her work.....!!!!??

and then the best part,,,,,

she had the day before gone to a dance party on this weekend> (this being her first one...!!)

and it ended up being her one of her worst nightmares,,,,,,or you can say she got the MOST POWERFUL CULTURAL SHOCK OF HER LIFE..?
like the ones experienced by a mother -in law gets when she goes to meet her son residing in US of A and sees the lifestyle of her BAHU....and or when sees a walmart,,,or when sees everything they have their,, cars, bungalows, of which she was proud back in INDIA,,,are bought on loans,,,and how they have to slog the whole day just to fill back the bills and mortages...>!!!

yeh,, my sis for the first time,,,,saw a lot of girls in outfits worn by item girls, tattoed back,(and god knows what else,,),,.

and to top it all she saw for the first time in her words:- A GIRL SMOKING..!!!

resulting in she exiting(and b'cos of her,,out came 6 other friends accompanying her) out from the party in 15 mins from their entry,,,, with remarks from her friends "don't act like 60 year old/?",,,"don't be a sissy,,,?",,"so what had you come here expecting ...people performing bharat natyam..??"

"why had you come here at the first place...??"

"common girl,,stop acting like a village girl,,,,,"

to shorten it up ,,,, she played spoil sport to her other friends......!!!

she came back home,,,, drank two glasses of water,,went to her room......came back,,, told my mom,,,,that she made a mistake being there,,,,,and would not have attended if she knew what was she going to see.....she was furious,abt many things,,,mobile cameras clicking ,,,the music setup,,the dance moves,,,etcc......!!!

i (with one experience of attending these parties, and numerous exp. of seeing girls smoke...!!) just told her that ,,"you better stop seeing these things right or wrong,,,,,i mean the guyz and gals there enjoy all this stuff.... ,,,this is the current cultural trend,,,, and more blah blah...you should not have played spoil sport to your friends ..more blah blah....!!...""

she just said,,"she could not stand it,,,,,,,,,yeh its true,, ".. still perplexed with what she saw...!!!

she is just one girl,,,, enjoying her job as a teacher in a pre school,,,teaching small kids,,,singing simple poems to them,,showing them simple hand leg movements..interacting with their parents,,listening to rhymes she would be teaching,,,,,,listening to soft and foot tapping bollywood music,,,,,enjoying the stupidity of yash raj movies,,,etc...!!!!!

she is not wrong ,,,,,equally nor i feel the gals she saw smoking are wrong.......!!!!

its better for her and me both to stop seeing things as right or wrong,,,,,,, i have understood this fact somewhat.....hope has too....!!!!

song i am listening to:-
1. TERA MERA RISHTAY...from the film awarapan....compased by some pakistani singer,,,after long time have been hooked to a song back...!!!

2. yun hi chala chal :- swades///!!

3. kyon judaa:- euphoria

4. wonderwall:- oasis....!!!!

sayonara....

my photo blog..1!

2007-06-22T22:38:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

the training is sucking me out,,,it is not turning out to be as easy i had thought it ought be,,,,learning quite some interesting stuff.......it leaves me log dead,,,,at the end of the day...!!!

anywayz thought should post some of the pics taken during my recent visit to SHIRDI,,and its neighbourhood places...nashik,saputara,deolali,gajpantha,etc. ..though the battery of the cam got empty half way thr' and as usaul forgot to carry the charger...!!!!

here are some of the unedited and mundane photo's...!!!

camera used :- 1.3 mp ,,arrey woh wala jo moto v3i main hota hoon....and few are clicked by a VGA cam.....i guess i do good enough job......awaiting a better cam,,,hopefully will be having it by the end of august...!!!

(PAPPARAZI:- ....... JAHAN JAATA HOON THEY COME RUNNING AFTER ME....this is me,,a pic clicked by myself,,,, lagta hain....i need a shave.....!!!!)

(mighty arabian sea:-....OBSERVE THE LIGTNING EFFECT IN THE SKY......and the rocks ,,,easily one of the best romantic places i have been too,,,,!!!bilkul isolated place tha..!!)

(MIRROR TEMPLE:-....visited at a place called gajpantha.....sereene,,,,the whole temple has been made of colourful mirrors,,,bahut ancient hain......more than mughal -e-azam..beautiful work...@@)

(ceiling of the temple)

(beside the hotel where i was staying,,,got up by theeir noise at around 6 am,,,saw that it was a laughing and spiritual club mainly including the old people,,,enjoyed seeing their enthusiam from the terrace,,,,,the person sitting at the bottom left and enjoying the course,,is none other than my dadu..!!!)

(listening to the co-ordinator:- ....i guees even i was enjoyin all the stuff he was speaking,,,,see the apt attention all are paying to his discourse,,,a sight worth the weight in gold....!!!)

(two opposite directions:- ..... dad and sis at an art gallery....!!)

(view from the hotel......see the mountain at the backdrops...its the satpuda ranges.....)

(one of the hotel near SHIRDI where we stayed and had our dinner..good one..!!!)

('kya dekh rahan hain:-' pic taken while driving,,,,, of the locals there...!!!)

photoblog 2

2007-06-21T22:59:00.000+05:30

(,,,there was a jain temple at the top....a very very ancient one,,,,around 500 steep steps above...enjoyed the mountain trekking up.and can't forget the darshan there,,,beautiful,prisitine.....!!!)

(view from the top....there was a military base camp down there,,,!)

(ouch...too pricky,,,a proper cactus plant..loved its shape.!)

(a small 11yr old:- he handled the whole shop himself,,,,,,,,,and he spoke much better than anyone more than 5 times his age....god bless him...!!!!!....)

song in my playlist:-

1. o meri jaan:- from the film life in metro...... !!

book i am (trying ) to read:-

the kite runner

movie i saw:-

antitrust

was a good time pass..

night out....!!

2007-06-17T04:09:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

ITS EXACTLY 4:05 am right now,,,,,and had yet another night out with friends A and K......

anywayz am right now in a serious and contemplative mood,,,,,,,which happens once in a while with me nowadays..........!!!!
my training at ESSAR STEELS HAZIRA has started,,,,and i guess,,,i must confess have chosen the wrong company ,,,,,,, should have gone to some other smaller company instead of this big wig,,,,,i mean they have posted me to the UTILITIES deppt,,, really gets boring learning simply about the water managemnt system out there,,,,,,anywayz hope to learn as much learning as much possible of the facts related to my field of chemical engg.....!!!!

it gets really tiresome travelling 40 kms one way to the plant....!!!

anywayz will be blogging about more stuff later....feeling really sleepy..!!!

song playing in the headphones:- o meri jaan. from life in a metro...!!!

mera pehla pehla job hain..:

2007-06-14T13:10:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,

IT'S my turn now,,,have seen on numerous blogs,,,,and its my oppurtunity now,,,,no no its not about my engagements, first crush, first kiss,,

but its about my first job,,, yes...!!!!.......i am employed, thanks to my university,,,, thanks to my milkman, thanks to my vegetable supplier, thanks to my barber...,,,thanks to the housemaids,,,thanks to my parents, thanks to my sisters, and thanks to the hr persons of IBM,.,,,yeh thats the company,,,,it was the first recruiter in the placement sessions and it had the guts to recruit me,,,or make me an IBM'er as they say.......!!!!

anyways here are some of the pics of the gruelling placement sessions...!!!

(MEN IN BLUE:-mera number aay ga....... when they were calling out the names of the one's recruited...!!!)

(saala thak gaya:- of the shirt and tie i had adorned,,taken after coming at home...!!!)

(first time wore a tie:- abbey yeh kaun hain..hrithik..nahin,,,abhishek,,, na re..... its my pic ,,taken on a bike with some friends,,edited out.....thanks to piccassa.....it was before the announcement of the shortlisted after the group discussion sessions....!)

(bahut tension hain yaar:-taken after the interview sessions,,,outside the guest house,,waiting for the final results of shortlisted ones...)

(at the end:- people being called on the dias,,and the IBM hr chief,,handing out the call letters..mera bhi ho gaya,,,by mistake.!!)

cyber CAFE DAY///!!

2007-06-06T12:11:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

obituatoy;-

after 7 years of hard life,,,.. undergoing rigurous handling,,,, the motherboard of my CPU....has given up its life..... its capacitors and IC(integrated circuits/.) are all at the point of no return......have to buy a new motherboard for my old processor,,or go for a new comp. all together..????/

starting with the cliche,,,, "has been a long time since i blogged".....

reasons:-

1. vaci time.... gymming, running, jogging..... but yeh surya devta....makes it as hard as possible...

2. went to my usaul un- winding city... mumbai..... i don't know what appeals me so much towards this city...

3. my comp is not working,,, reasons stated above,,,,

surfing from a cafe,,after a long long time..... its a dangerous place... can see couple sitting at the diagonal cabin to me,,, doing evrything but surfing..... can see parents talking to their small grandson and son on the webcam ,,,,who i guess must be earning in dollars at the US of A ....

while the girl in front of me is smiling and talking,,,,,first i thought it is for me,,,,but just saw a mic attached on her,,,, bloody,,,,, i guess talking to her hubby,,,ehh... giggling more talking less....

anywayz let me end my bragging here,,, time is just up......can't bear more of the giggling ..cya....!!

song in the cafe's list:- told them to play

sone de maa:- euphoria...from the flm shootout at lokhandwala..!

CHO and me..>!

2007-05-05T09:30:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,

abbey,,,,,the articles i just went through have left me shocked or rather in a state of fear......no no...i haven't read 'why himesh wears cap' ,,,,or 'why the hell does rakhi sawant fake emotions all the time.....'

but i just read some of the articles on the VIRGINIA TECH MASSACRE......carried out by some one called seung hi CHO.......the article provided some insights on the mental working of the psycho path......

and it provided three possibilities..... :-
1. ASPERGER SYNDROME

2. SCHIZOPHRENIA

3. AUTISM

THE article also provided,,,,the definitions and the symptons shown by the patients during these mental disorder....(.they were complex one's really...)....,, and fear struck me here,,,reading those symptoms:-

i remember even while studying biology in my higher secondary,,,,,especially studying the symptoms of different diseases especially those due to hormone disorders ,, and the STD one's......it used to send shiver down my spine......for i always felt that there were many of the signs in these symptoms that were present in me ,,,,,i used to feel subconsciously that maybe i have chances of suffering from these...

not only me,,i used to analyze even my sis ,,neighbours with these symptoms.....i once forced my sis to go through all the blood tests , and other routine pathological tests....when i made her believe that her hands were looking yellow as maybe she was suffering from jaundice......

she was detected totally healthy,,,,,and afterwards it came to light that her hands were yellow because of the yellow coloured compass box she was holding in her hand for some time.....!!!!

and now reading these symptoms of different disorders i feel there are high chances of me suffering from them,,,,some of the sommon stuff that i find are :-

a>. they don't talk much... yes,,apart from the babbles here with my bloggy,,,and some more friends i speak very less....!!!!

b>. CHO used to stalk girls......... though i don't stalk them,,,but shit!! i do stare at them......saala hope i am a normal boy...!!

c>. they don't socialize much......... abbey main bhi ek bhi social community ka member nahin hoon...!!...must open an account today itself in all the friends networking site..!!!

d>, they don't show much of enthusiasm.............. even i don't show them,(apart from when playing any game, or on close one's birthday,,,,anniversary,,results,,meeting friends,,etc///)...!!!

e>. CHO used to watch a lot of vioent movies, played violent games......even i sometimes watch some of the ekta kapoors serial once in a while.....!!

f>. CHO had a imaginery girl friend................. ala beautiful mind.......let alone be imaginery,,i don't have a girl friend........i only have some stupid friends who are girls by chance...!!!!

this reminds me of.....my senior M,,,,, abbey i am not sure whether you read my blogs or not,,(for i never passed you the link ),but have a feeeling you do read it..........

M is going to pass out from college......and shifting to some other place for joining her job.......

hey miss,,,,best luck for you life ahead......always have a great time when you are around....thank you for the long walks,,,,thank you for the ice cream sessions we had,,,,,,,than you for sharing the BXXXXX habits,(though i still wonder how could you be so cheap yaar..!!...!!),,, and last but not the least ,, thank you for paying the ice cream bills most of the time....honestly it feels like heaven having a FREE ka ice cream,,,,!!!

on a serious note,,, i enjoyed the sisterly love you showered on me,,,,, i wish success in everything you do from the bottom of my heart.(eh...).,,,,,,,,and last but not least,, wish you all the happiness in each and every relationship you have(..wink..!!!) .....!!!

arrey coming back to CHO AND mental disorders:-

g>. CHO used to write screenplay filled with absurd violence,.,,,,.... i feel all my writings on these blogs,,are nothing less than mental torture,,,,and is testimonial to my mental condition....!!!

but on the other note UNLIKE CHO:-

a>. i enjoy teasing my friends

b.> enjoy spending time with my family

c.> enjoy having fights with my sis

d.> i have my mouths open ,,when i see KAREENA ,,,dancing ,smiling,giggling ,,,in songs and films like... omkara,,,

e.> playing with the small kids in my neighbour hood

f.> i like to pray, go to diff. religious places

g.> i love going to long drives,,be it in a car or my cycle...i just love travelling....!

h.> i like to crack non sensical jokes....,,etc

and above all i certainly believe life is about taking risks.,, and i certainly believe that my life could not be more beautiful,,,with all these undue tensions,,mix of happiness and sorrow....!!!

arrey,, also i am sure that CHO didn't listen to BRYAN adams,,, like i am doing now,,after such a long time....love his romantic songs,,,,,,

1. I AM A LIAR

2. LETS MAKE A NIGHT TO REMEMBER

3. WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE

4. I THINK ABOUT YOU...

I oughta be workin - but I cant concentrate
I oughta be sleepin - steada stayin up late
When I oughta be doing all the things I should do
I think about you
I oughta be writin - but I cant find the song
Just sittin here driftin - driftin along
Theres only one thing that I wanna do
And thats think about you

5, BACK TO YOU

Ive been down - Ive been beat
Ive been so tired-that I could not speak
Ive been so lost thatt I could not see
I wanted things that were out of reach
Then I found you and you helped me through
And ya showed me what to do
And thats why Im comin back to you...

6. ON A DAY LIKE TODAY

7. CUTS LIKE A KNIFE.(listening to this one right now.....)

8. THE ONLY THING THAT LOOKS GOOD ON ME

dont look good in no armani suits
No gucci shoes - or designer boots
Ive tried the latest lines from a to z
But theres just one thing that looks good on me

The only thing I want
The only thing I need
The only thing I choose
The only thing that looks good on me...is you

love most of this legend,,,, listening to music of such people make's life look so simple.....!!!!!

and yeh,,, if any of the brave hearted going thr' this blog,,,feels like i have a slightest chance of getting as aggressive as CHO.....report to me,,,or mail me your address,,,,,, before reporting to the CBI's or FBI's,,,,!!!!

SHAUK HAIN,,,,!!!

2007-05-03T09:04:00.000+05:30

( pic of my friend in my room...!)

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

1.
the exams are atlast over,,,,,,

so what's the next assignment,,,,, placements...... lets see how it goes......have shortlisted 2 companies..... sure ,,would convert one of it.... !!!!

,,,,,, it has been a long time ,,,,since i felt motivated in doing something......in achieving something......
and the pursuit for it has already started .,,,,,will give it the impetus it needs from today,,,,,

(seems as if i am going to scale the mighty everest,,, actually nothing like that,,,,,,,its just a trivial stuff,,,,, )

but one thing that i have started to feel over the past few years of my existence,,,,and more in the last few days ,,,,is that ..:-

"the more you try to seek something,,,,the more it runs away from you,,,the more it teases you...."(dekha,,,, ANKIT BABA in the making,,,,!!)

and this is what i am going to follow,,,,
will not run after money,,,,,will not be intimated by the extra amount of salary,,,......or by the perks....that would end up making me a materialistic black hole...(now!! whatever it means....)

so apart from the above strong funda's...

.on the lighter side,,,, i guess this phase will help me knowing myself much better,,,,,, !!!!

2. GYM.....:_

have joined a gym back after a long time,,,,so the priority is fitness,,,, pumping those irons,,,,

will be paying the fee's for a longer duration,,,,,,...

another hrithik in the making,,,!!!!

3. music:-

listening to SHAUK HAIN- FROM THE film guru,,,

bloody how could mani ratnam murder this beautiful song by using it as a background score....!!!

gem of a song....sung beautifull by soumya rao......

the song pierces into the heart at the first hearing itself....soothing,relaxing..:-

my bow to THE BOSS AR RAHMAN and the beautiful poetry of GULZUR///....deadly combination:-

RAAT KA SHAUK HAIN,
RAAT KI SAUNDHI SI,KHAMOSHI KA SHAUK HAIN

SUBAH KI ROSHNI
BEZOOBAN SUBAH KI GUNGUNATI ROSHNI KA SHAUK HAIN

HO SHAUK HAIN SHAUK HAIN

AND LAST BUT NOT least intend to start blogging something more sensible ,,,,as me having loads of time in my hands nowadays.....therefore instead of willifying my time on the net to glory,,,

so intend to blog regularly more intellectual apart from these babbles,,,,,!!!

instantaneous babble..!!

2007-04-26T01:15:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

yeh!!! the last thing i could do now was//actually is.....to blog........have my exams going on.....tomm. actually today....it is 12 past midnight......the subject called G C T general chemical technology...........it's course is as weighty as once adnan sami used to weigh......poor joke ......,,,

the situation i am at present.......

screwed todays exams mercilessly.......am in hostel,,,,my study mate,,,,just had two shots of fuel....(a brand of vodka..),,, the other one,,,,,don't know where he has gone.,,,,
now her comes a nerd,,,,,wait let me handle him..............!!

after 20 min,,,,,:- he has gone......discussed with him somethin called FURFURAL extraction.......

now why am i blogging,,,, actually my mate is such a big fanatic of footballl,,, has gone to see the liverpool v/s chelsea match.....damn with the exams he says.......!!!

so am off too....maybe will have a chai and puff at night canteen....need to study,,,,,,,,

life could not be more beautiful,,,visaulise my situation...........hope to go thr atleast all the pages of the course...!!!

---towel--

2007-04-20T09:06:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG(MB),,,

MB>>> arrey,,,dhakkan,,,,you just blogged last night,,,,,and here you are again blogging back early morning.......strange......kuch kaam nahin hain kya....you had a exam...??/

me>>. sahi bola....i am thinking myself......just got up from sleep......had kept the comp., tubelight switched on the whole night........

also,,,,don't know....feeling some negative vibrations(now whatever that means..!!!)......and the best thing i can do with it is to vent it out,.,,,,,who better than MISS BLOG,,,,

anywayz,,,,have a long day ahead,,,have to make it useful.....

so i better start moving.....another senseless random post,,,,,can't help it....
....WHERE IS MY TOWEL..?????

dahi..!

2007-04-19T23:04:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG(MB),,,

abbey,,, the last 4 days were really hectic,,,,, purely due to academics,,,,,,on one hand it left me almost sleepless for about around 72 hrs.....and there is an urgent need of having another long night,,,,,

my PAPA egg-xams,,,i mean the 'baap of exams'..the end exams are up from this monday itself.......thanks to my university schedule,,have got a full 1 day of PL officially.....kudos....atleast this one day will help me collect all my xerox materials,,and know about the course more clearly....

for it has been hardly any class where i have spent my time conc. on what the teacher is trying to explain......!!!!

so MISS BLOG,,,pray for me really hard.......need them yaar...!!!

TO DO LIST FOR THIS EXAMS:

1. DRINK WATER...
2. attend less calls,,and more imptly. call less//..!!
3. be more patient,,and have more faith......
4. watch the time when listening to music...!!
5. and last but not the least....not to get hyper....!!!

B>> MY DUSTERS....

the kids you see are my neighbours...

LOCATION:- MY ROOM ,,,STUDY DESK(see the white board and my study table below..)

the bigger one here finds an unusaul fun in rubbing the board with his fingers,,,he comes every evening to do that......

and the small one often sits on my lap,,,when i am sitting and studying on the chair.....

(due to some religious reasons their parents haven't still got their first hair cut....feel like running scissors thr' them...!)

anywayz.....off to sleep..have to have a early morning ....!!!

listening to :-

1. tears and rains....:- james blunt... love the lyrics ,,, the voice of this singer...!!

"I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain..."

movies,,,!!!

2007-04-14T23:49:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

"" enough is enough,,,""

abbey,,,,,,can't believe it....the last two days i have been doing nothing but just two things...

1. seeing films

2. listening to music

3. sleeping...

to top on it ,,,i have my submissions and vivas and presentation from monday,,and the baap of all exams END SEMS,,,,on next monday....!!!!!!

anywayz,,,,will kick myself to the study desk tommorow........have to cope up with a lot of stuff.....!!!!

just finished seeing two movies today...

1. FORREST GUMP:-... worth a watch..>!!!

2. 15 PARK AVENUE:- ..must watch.....though the open ending of the film left me wondering or rather shocked...!!!!

also saw BHEJA FRY yesterday,,,,a frame by frame remake of a french film DINNER GAME.....

it is certainly a winner,,,especially vinay pathak .......a light hearted fun film...ahad a good time.....!!!!

btw yesterday i also saw FOUNTAINHEAD,,the film....the film compelled me to turn some pages of the novel again....!!!

bas,,,ab bahut ho gaya,,,,i guess....this would be the last set of films i will watch now,,in this sem....(hopefully...)!!!!!

HOTEL RWANDA , CINDERELLA MAN..!

2007-04-13T00:05:00.000+05:30

1. CINDERELLA MAN:-

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just finished watching another movie based on a real story,,,,,, the previous one being HOTEL RWANDA...... !!!

cinderella man being based upon the true life story of the irish born boxer JIM BRADDOCK......

the film consist of the same team that made the magical film called A BEAUTIFUL MIND ,,,, ie ....that of director RON HOWARD and actor RUSSELL CROWE.....!!!!

HOTEL RWANDA,,,,though touched me a lot and i feel is a better film than this one.....as this film doesn't contain as much layers in the main character as in hotel rwanda,ie PAUL RUSEGABINA,,,...!!!

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2007-04-11T22:49:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG.,,,

,,arrey,,,,,had a exam today,,,,,,,,,of a subject called CRE .....or in full form... CHEMICAL REACTION ENGINEERING,....... dekha na ,,kya fundoo lagta hain,,,,,,,,, so the last night was spent trying to unlock the mechanism of wierd looking reactions,,,,and the absurd behaviour of different type of reactors......

but today while writing the 'DATE' of the examination it suddenly striked me,,,,,that the way days are passing by,,,,,,

par saala,,,, yeh exam schedule nostalgic hoone hi nahin deta.......

have two submissions tom. ,, have a industrial visit to a place called ONGC,,,,dekte hain kya hota in huge huge karkhaano main.....!!!

on a personal note,,,,,don't know.,,, but feel very light nowadays,,,,,,eh....light on both physical and even on a mental note,,,,,,,, i mean though at one point it looks as if the time is running with a very high speed,,,,,,but nowadays it does not worry me much,,,or in fact i have started getting very strong vibrations within me,,,,that i can handle this speeding time well,,,,,!!!

just can't explain the feelings i have been going thr' from the past few days,,,,,suddenly i have started seeing things pretty clearly,,,,,,, life is not looking too complicated nowadays.....have been adorning a smile within me continuously,,,,,,,,and i don't want to analyse why i have been going thr' this ..................,,lets see how far this goes........!!!!!!!!

movie:-

yippy ,,,got my hands to the movie :- THE FOUNTAINHEAD made in 1949

music:-

1. KYON JUDAA:- euphoria,,,palash,,,,TAKE A BOW ,,,,,,,!!

2. DHOOM PICHUK DHOOM:- euphoria

3. PANCHI:- jal

4. SAHAANA POOKAL:- tamil song of the latest rajnikanth film SIVAJI,,,composed by none other than AR RAHMAN,,,,,beautiful romantic tune sung by udit narayan....!!

5. HUMSAFAR :- silk route,,,

6. FANAA:- yuva

7. KU KU KU:- sung by sonu nigam , music sandeep chowta

books:-

INTRODUCTION TO CRE:- octave levenspiel......!

MASS TRANSFER OPERATIONS :- treybal....!!

abbey,, they are all my course books./....!!!

SPIC MACAY....!!

2007-04-08T16:35:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,

1. SPIC MACAY

the last few days have been really interesting,,,where i came in contact with really interesting sets of people.......one particular person:-

1. PANDIT NAYAN GHOSH:-

"""Pandit Nayan Ghosh is one of the preeminent tabla players today, regarded by many as the greatest performer of the traditional tabla repertoire of the Farrukhabad style. His powerful tone, depth of feeling and vast repertoire have made him the musical heir to the greatest tabla player of all time, Ustad Ahmedjan Thirakwa. Pandit Nayan Ghosh's profound musical talent has allowed him to become not only a renowned tabla player but also one of India's top-ranking sitar players, a nearly unprecedented feat in Indian classical music.

Pandit Nayan Ghosh was trained by his father, the legendary Padmabhushan Nikhil Ghosh, and practiced under the careful eye of Ustad Ahmedjan Thirakwa, who lived with them for many years in Mumbai. In addition to his father, Pandit Nayan Ghosh has accompanied many of the all-time greats, such as his uncle Pandit Pannalal Ghosh, Pandit Nikhil Banerjee, Ustad Vilayat Khan and Pandit Buddhadev Das Gupta.""

can only say that i am really fortunate and lucky to have spend quite some good time and more importantly quality time with this great person.....!!

he was in our college,,,,to give a concert on a SITAR......and being a spicmacay volunteer,,,,
i was given the charge of escorting him all the time,.,,,,,!!!!

(panditji playing a raaga)
about his music:-

pure,,,, especially the raaga jhinjhoti he played took me and the whole audience to another level.....
easily one of the best concerts i have attended till date.

(panditji mesmerizing the audience with his voice)

the best part of his performance,,,,was when he started singing the raaga's before playing it on the sitar.......his voice was truly mesmerizing.....captivating.......!!!!

add to that:---- he performed on sitar,,,while he himself confessed many times,,,that his main forte is TABLA......his father has got the padmabhushan award for the same...........

a complete musician,, one of world's best tabla player(wish i could hear him playing that,,),,,equally good sitar player and with a mesmerizing voice.....!!!
it's a pity that the indian audience especially the youth don't know much about the person of his calibre,,,,,when all his shows are booked full time in USA,UK,etc(he is played all over the world new york,, stanford ,,,any renowned place one can name)....!!!

as a person:-

without exagerating a single word,,,,,,i have no words for this man,,,,,,humble to the core,,,unasumming,,,,,no ego,,,,a great personality,,,,,,

(after the show,,,he was explaing that this sitar was new,,,the sound will get much more better with the next 5 years...the old person standing beside him had attended his faher's concert too...!! )

i can say all this,,,for most part of the day,,i had accompanied him,,,,,,,he truly personfied what humbleness is all about,,,,,, down to earth,,,,,,,,

especially the way he interacted with each and all.,,,, right from the cook,,,who was serving him food,,,,
especially on instance,,,when we all were having lunch with him (around 2 pm),,,
i had a lecture to attend at 2:30 pm,,,,, and ,,,the way he was concerned of my not getting late for the lecture,,,,(he genuinely showed a concern ,,,,a concern maybe even my girlfriend would have not showered... ),, he even made a point to serve me the chappatti's first so that i could finish the lunch quickly,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i mean it may sound trivial ,,,,but speaks volume of this man.....!!!!

learnt the quality of humbleness,,,appreciating the good,,, and keeping your thoughts pure,,,from this man....a perfect eg. of all this....!!!

(eh..some of my friends,,,,,the pic was taken near the station at around 3 am...when we had gone to see off panditji for his train.....on way back,,,stopped to have a cup of cutting chai...! )

stress buster ..rudr....!

2007-04-06T02:07:00.000+05:30

1. my DIRTY neighbours...:-

abbey ,,na beta......ek hi to hain mere paas....!!

the one with my hankerchief in his mouth is named 'rudr' --he is my laughing buddha..
.......while the one in the background is his big brother 'shubhang'.....bloody,,,most of the innumerable questions he asks,,,usaully leaves me stumped.......,,,,he is the next APJ in making....love them both......wish the smaller one never grows...just joking....!!!!

main jahaan rahoon...,,!!

2007-03-25T00:01:00.000+05:30

1,.
sometimes we delve into criticism so much that we forget to appreciate the more beautiful and commendable works,,,,,

same goes with HIMESH reshammiya,,,,with all due respects,,the media and the evn the aam junta,,,are so much into criticizing him,,,,that some of his good work goes un appreciated,,,,

i was highly impressed by his honest works in TERE NAAM,,,KYON ki,,,and more of his works in AHISTA AHISTA,,,,that totally went unheard,,,,,,, same applies with his new album,,,NAMASTE LONDON,,,,,he has come with a gem of a song,,,,,MAIN JAHAAN RAHOON,,,,,song sung by RAHAT FATEH ALI KHAN,,,,,yeh the name of this singer makes me sit and notice ,,especially after hearing NAINA from omkara a zillion times,,,,

and yet again the singer along with krishna,,,,and himesh has come up with a sober song,,,along with the beautiful poetry of JAVED AKHTAR....watchout for the song,,,!!!

2. have several tests lined up for next week,,,,,and have to prepare for some presentations....hope to come out with some good work...!!!

ek pal ke liye..!

2007-03-21T21:05:00.000+05:30

1. EK PAL KE LIYE:- just for a moment..!!!

easily one among my topmost songs from the year 2006......!!

gem of a song,,,music given by pritam worded by amitabh verma,,,,, soul ful...,, captivating,available in three versions,,sung by three talented singers ,,sonu nigam, KK,shreya ghoshal...hard to pick up which is the better one.....though i prefer the sonu nigam version during driving, while the KK one while working on the comp....!!!

do give this song a try.,,,i would say must try...,,,from the film ANKAHEE....!!!

india and china:- sez

2007-03-20T21:02:00.000+05:30

INDIA AND CHINA (SEZ)

1. INDIA on SEZ:-

won't make any complicated comments,,

my simple views:-

i fully support the indian gov. views on having more SEZ's in our country.
india certainly needs to move ahead with its manufacturing capabilities to support the creative entrepreneurs it has.
certainly the land acquisition should not go the way of nandigram,(here the farmers are made to believe as if the gov. are forcing them to give up their lands.)
INDIA needs first to make proper laws for land acquistion
unfortunately politics is being played on this topic, which should be avoided.
there is a necessity to set up large industries in consultation with people and to maintain a balance with agriculture and payment of compensation for land acquired for projects.

CHINA on SEZ:-

being a communist country, no probs in land acquisition
people over there have accepted it with a smile.
india had a SEZ at kandla 14 yrs before china had its first one, yet it has out performed india vehemently in handling the sez and its policies.

DOLLAR BAHU:-

finished reading this book.

a simple , straight forward, no twists or show of complicated feelings,.....found it a nice reading.

now started :- FREAKONOMICS,
AUTHOR:-STEVEN D LEVITT AND S. DUBNER

listening to:-

1. dil kya kare:- adnan sami from the bollywood film salaam e ishq,,,,
2. tenu leke :- sonu nigam, again from same film......
its fun listening to such peppy romantic songs for a change...love them.!!!

i love myself...!!!...!!!

2007-03-20T00:58:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

okay,,,,,, in a contemplative mood,,,,,,so be ready to get bored.....!!!!

anywayz cutting the crap,,,,,let me start my badinage....
'
1. feeling restless:-

now.,, makes me wonder,,,,,seems like i am leaving my life in irony,,,or in other words extremes ...i get up in the morning..,,,, looking positive,,,and end up the day in a state of negativity....!!!

i have started feeling that i dont love myself much anymore....!!!,,don't know why.....but maybe,,,,there have been series of incidences.....which has brought me to thhis stage,,,,, i guess,,this has to do with something called self control....... and if i had to rate my self control 2 yrs back,,,it would have been 11 on 10....!!!,, i had more control over myself,,,my thoughts then,,,...!!

but suddenly now i feel,,,i have started losing.....and it is showing in everything. i do....in my body,,in my mind,,,i guess there are somethings,,,which i guess,,has to be controlled instantly////......i feel looking at myself,,...that though,,,with more access to more information,,intellectual and more communicating devices around me,,,,,,i am becoming more ignorant,,immature than what i was when i had none of these devices around me...!!!

yeh,,i certainly feel,,,,i have grown into a more immature guy then i was.........

the reason i feel restless more nowadays,,is that...i contemplate a lot and end up contradicting whatever i had decided upon,,,and it is continuing from past many days,,maybe months////.......and maybe this feeling is piling up every day...which is increasing the confusions inside me.....it has left me unfocussed ,non passionate and more unrespectful of the things and people around me...!!!.

i certainly don't want to live a life where i start the day with a meditation session and end it with a party in a discotheque,,,, i don't want myself reading a spiritual book at one instance and then go and act not being myself,,,....!!!!

the solution :-that i feel will help me reducing this feeling of restless ness is ,,i guess,,,,maybe revert back to some aspects of my previous self....
there are certain things right now,,which i guess needs immediate attention and solution,,,,i should reach to them fast,,,,,and it is not to do with any physical work or something but rather its more mental,,,,,,certainly i feel ,,thinking too much or forcing myself would leave me more exhausted state i am in...!!!

looking at the things around me ,,,,,there are nothing much that should bother me:-

i mean
a. i am scoring not badly in my academics
b. physically i don't have any ailments that should bother me
c. i have GREAT people around me ,,,,that includes my sis,,parents,,mausi(my housemaid..),,,,cousins,,,,aunts,,,who shower their genuine concerns over me,,,,which always makes me feel that,,,whateever be the circumstances i would'nt have any problems bouncing back.....!!!
d. i have a few good friends though i do wish i could get more chances to spend time with them....,,,but i do have MISS BLOG,,,to fill the gap,,,...!!!
e. i am doing most of the time what i like more ,,,travelling,,,,playing games,,,,and roam around in the free air,,,at unearthly hours like now,,,,,and i thank my parents for allowing me to do all this....!!!!!

anywayz ultimately,,,,,,i think i should give myself more time,,,and then pass a jjudgement overmyself.......and hopefully reach at a point of bliss with myself.,,..!!!

for this i should stop being too harsh on myself,,,,,and start appreciating the more beautiful stuff around me and ignore and move ahead unconcerned with the huge banks of negativity and avoid people with whom i don't connect much.,,with whom i don't act genuinely..,,,,,,and instead give more time to myself......or rather start LOVING MYSELF more,,,,(and love here doen't mean getting self obsessed...!!)!!.........!!!..

song in my playlist:-

1. laare choote:- from the new film EK CHALLIS Ki local////.....abhay deol's unreleased film,,looking forward to it...!!

book i am reading;:-

1. dollar bahu:- sudha murthy

films i am going to watch :-

1. hotel rwanda

flavors...smiling all the way...!

2007-03-15T01:53:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

i guess its too late to blog,,,,,but just saw a movie,,,,,,,the sort of movie which was very much needed...i mean was a stress buster kind of film,,,,enjoyed it thouroghly,,,beautiful innocent film,,,,,,will blog about it more later......thought of jotting it down as a blog,,,so that it does not escape from my 'bullakad' mind..>..good night!!!

women quota...

2007-03-11T22:30:00.001+05:30

CHINA AND INDIA:-- on

women's quota:---

CHINA:-

the largest communist country has around 20% women representatives,,and soon it is going to float a bill making 22% MANDATORY...

The bill, to be put for voting next week, says that "the proportion of women deputies to the 11th NPC should be no less than 22 per cent."

the 11th NPC(National People's Congress ) is going to start from 2008.....!!

INDIA:-

,,,on women's day just passed,,,,and the PM of india has affirmed to having a serious view of having a quota of women in the parliament of india....!!!

but i guess,,,,,this has been the case which has been going on for the past many years,,,,i mean every year on woman's day,,,,,the pm gives of WOMAN bravery awards,,,,,the lady representatives...gives a speech on the improving conditions,,,and all the achievements women have made......like

going to the moon,,scaling everest,,,being more active in the politics,,,handling good portfolio's in the corporate sector,,,sports,,medical,,,industries,.etc....!!!

but on the grass root level it is but obvious that,,,,,there are very few woman representatives..:--

so here the question arises:-

WHY DO WE NEED WOMAN REPRESENTATIVES??

the answer to this ques ,,i guess can be made easily by throwing more counter ques:-

WHY SHOULD THERE BE SC/ST QUOTA?
WHY SHOULD THERE BE ARMY QUOTA/ BC QUOTA?
WHY SHOULD THERE BE HANDICAP QUOTA?

and it is obvious that the same logic as applied in other quota's can be applied to woman one too....

And i obviously feel that women and men cannot compete with the same set of rules on the political scene ,,,for the simple reason that they from the start have and had a disadvantage over men over social and more importantly over the educational and economical issues....right from their upbringing and also after their marriage...!!!

though the scene has obviously changed totally,,,,,, but that is only limited to the middle class and higher levels.....primarily due to the reason of having a nuclear family....!!!

but on the rural level,,,,it has not gained so much importance.....!

......also in today's scene it can be clearly seen that,,,,SONIA GANDHI,,,VASUNDHARA RAJE,,,SHIELA DIXIT...etc......have all come from affluent,,educated,,,and more importantly rich familes....!!

but in order to enable woman to make political decisions,,and give them a chance to change and hae a say in the male dominated political scene in INDIA.,...it is very much important that ....a woman residing even in a town should feel empowered of making self made decisions.....
obviously only WOMEN quota would not accomplish this fact,,,,,
but atleast it would give an impetus to empowering the women of INDIA,,,,and thus strengthening our democracy tremendously.

self analysis...!

2007-03-10T23:15:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

suddenly,,,,,feeling like talking to someone,,,,,, who better than yours truly...!!!

don't know why but......,,,,, have been feeling this from the past many days......

MISS BLOG>>>kya ,,,,bol na.....bahut serious lag rahan hain..???

me>> hain,,,kabhi kabhi to seriously serious hata hoon.....mood mat change kar yaar,,,,,(though i love this canny act of yours to change my mood.....)...!!

anywayz on a serious note.....i have been feeling from the past many days......actually its pulling me down like anything.....
the feeling that,,,,maybe i have changed a lot........

MISS BLOG>>> okay so you want to do a SELF ANALYSIS today..???

ME>> haan aisa hi kuch.......

actaully,,,,the changes in me ,,,i feel some are very much needed ,,and i am comfortable with it,,,,,but on top of it,,,,,i certainly feel one should not lose his coreself,,,,,and i think here is where i feel a little guilty-guilty waala stuff.......
i have always felt that,,,,,the one thing in me that was always prevalent was HONESTY......honesty in everything ,,,,in the relationships,,in my work,,,in everything i did,,i spoke,,,,..even the lies i spoke,,,,were always done with a feeling of honesty,,,,,

but nowadays....and especially,,,,the last few days,,,,i feel there has been tremendous changes in me,,,,,especially in my thinking,,,now....i don't mind being unhonest,,,with the words i speak,,,the actions i do .......and the worst thing,,,i feel i am not being honest with myself........

actually,,,,i have started fooling around with many things around me.....which i feel ,,i am doing it just for the sake of sense gratification.....,,,and which can be avoided very easily......and which i could avoid so easily before,,,,,,.but now i find it a little difficult to ..!!!

MISS BLOG>>> arrey ..chill maar yaar...hota hain sabke saath ,,,,tension mat le......just take a chill pill......on a serious note,,,,,just be yourself,,,,!!

me>>> sahi bola,,,,,,,thoda genuinity lana padega mere life mein,,,,,,,dimaag ka dahi ban gaya freinds log ke saath apna comparison kar kar ke,,,,,,also,,,,one more thing,,,,,i feel i have started getting a lot jealous about many things.....

mera matlab jealousy ,,woh bhi,,,black jealousy,,,,,, i.e......the type which is not going to help me anywayz,,,,,,,will like to and have to curb it to a lower level...!!!

MISS BLOG>>> thik hain na......ab tension mat le zyada,,,and go to sleep now.....and last but not the least,,,believe in your ethics,,beliefs,,,your convictions,,your commitment level,,etc...,even though the people around maybe won't believe those ,,or won't value those.......but atleast you will be true to yourself......and also alongwith that respect their beliefs and thinking,,,even if you abhor those........!!

me>> abbey,,,,,MB ,,it seems you have got a knack of getting me back to my senses.....thank ko......feeling better blogging this......thank ko again......cya ...goodnight...!!!!!

START BELIEVING THAT LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL,,,,AND IT WILL BECOME A FACT...!

songs in my playlist:-

1. WITH OR WITHOUT YOU:- U2 /....love this song.....

2. BLAZE OF GLORY:- bon jovi

3.GOO GOO DOLLS :- iris,,,,this song is sounding today like never before......loving it..>!!

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

MY WALLPAPER at present:-

ek geet hijar da..!

2007-03-07T00:39:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

i guess,,,,,apparently it has not been a long time confronting you,,,(the last 2 posts have been saved as drafts///........nothing personal.....but didnt want it to post it fr some unknown reason......!!!)

so i come here ,,,,have two things to say...:-

1. exams got over......no comments on how it went off..>!

2. music:-

a>>> RABBI SHERGILL:-

LISTENING again to tere bin.....his song from his old album ,,(that one having bulla ki jaana...) that has been included in the new film 'delhi heights'

reminded me of how i was hooked to all his previous album songs....so scavenged the old album..and have again got hooked to two of his songs:-

1. gill te guitar(a song about how he misses his 3 friends....!!)

2. and especially this one...EK GEET HIJAR DA(meaning THE SONG OF LONGING).....have already heard it for around 25-30 times...:-

got the english translation for the PUNJABI LYRICS of it somehow...here it goes:-

Ek Geet Hijar Da
Ajj asaan ve bolna / Today I shall speak
Ajj kise na tokna / Today I shan't be stopped
Lekh ve jindrhi da / The script of destiny
Ajj asaan ve bhogna / Today I shall live it

Na roveen meet moiyan te mere / Don't cry at my death my Friend
Na paavin vainh moiyan te / Don't sing mournful tunes
Tu gaaveen geet / Sing instead this song
Ek geet / This Song

Kal jo beet gaya / Yesterday, all that passed
Na beeteya O jo beet gaya / Hasn't passed but remains with me
Sool mere seene / A thorn in my heart
Vairi khob gaya / Driven by Foe

Keetey main sab chaare / I've used all options
Saarey upaa haare / All cures have failed
Ehda 'laaj bas ek geet / The only cure is this song
Ek geet hijar da / A song of longing

Ek geet hijar da / A song of longing
Ek geet sabar da / A song of restraint
Ek geet karam da / A song of kindness
Ek geet reham da / A song of mercy

Ek geet milan da / A song of union
Ek geet balan da / A song of burning
Ek geet gunaah da / A song of Sin
Ek geet panaah da / A song of pardon

Ek geet, Ek geet, Ek geet / A song, A song, A song

Hunh na kujh disda / Now I see nothing
Hunh na kujh sujhda / Now I can't grasp anything
Zehar naseebaan da / Since the poison of the fate
Ajj asaan jo peeta / Has been mine to drink

Sa'te taras kareen / Have mercy on me
Na lekha mera mangii / Don't ask for my liabilities
Ve tu sunii eh mera geet / Just listen this song of mine

Vekheen zara / Look here
Na hove kharaab / Don't let it go waste
Boohey tere, hanju mera / This teardrop of mine
Ho jaave tere dar te manzoor / Let it be accepted at your gate
Mere Huzoor / My Master

Eh geet hijar da / This song of longing
Eh geet sabar da / This song of restraint
Eh geet karam da / This song of kindness
Eh geet reham da / This song of mercy

Eh geet milan da / This song of union
Eh geet balan da / This song of burning
Eh geet gunaah da / This song of Sin
Eh geet panaah da / This song of pardon

love this song,,and after reading its english translation the song has been more elevated in my eyes....i mean previously loved it just for its music,,rhythm,,.. but now the song touches me,,,,i dont know exactly,,,but the honesty of the song sung by RABBI SHERGILL and the lyrics written by him touches the heart..!..>!!!

anywayz have to get up early tommorow,,,,,feeling sleepy,,cya..!~!

personal diary of a third person...!

2007-02-23T21:06:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,,

a post out of thin air,,,,,,,,,,,,now i don't know why i wrote that,,,,,,,,anywayz,,,,had an interesting day today........

the most interesting part of it was reading the personal diary of a classmate....i mean it was accidental.....and could'nt think but laugh throughout the day because of it.....with only one thought in my mind....

HIS LIFE SEEMED MORE SCREWED THAN ME.......!!!!!!!!!!!!

the diary was feeded for about 15-20 days regularly alongwith his everyday expenses...>!!!!!

the only thing he wrote in these entries were:-
1. his girl
2.the same girl
3.the same girl

and here 'girl' doesn't mean about his female contacts ,,,,,but about a girl whom he loved in a non-sisterly way.........!!!

i know it's wrong of me writing about his personal stuff here......but '''bhaad mein jaye ethics.!.''''

i guess,,,,what was intriguing me about his writings was .....the shallowness in his and her's feelings.......i mean he went through all those stuff which a 'HERO' in a typical bollywoodish film goes........his writings had at some instance jealousy ,,,revenge....,,,,slangs,,,fights,actions,,,drama,,,propose-ness(now whatever that means),,,mushy stuff during his first few datings,,,etc....!!!!!

and wht made me think,,,and reminded me of some instances where i had been thr' some of the feelings........(abbey,,,no not to the extent where i hatched plans of hatching plots to kill a villian trying to woo the same girl,,or getting jealoused seeing her close to some friend of mine,,or myself becoming a devdas with her thoughts........!!!)

anywayz ...what else made me think ,,,was will there be some fe-male in my life whio would be capable of invoking such feelings in me,,,,,,,,,and even if she does,,,will i succumb to these feelings///....!!!

and righ now...i can only say that NO......!!!,,,,
i mean i am not saying all these stuff thinking that i am a super stud....and i wont ever be attracted towards anyone.....(but i guess its the opposite,,,,,,aanyone with a (good looking) eyes...eh .....doesn't make sense////.....in short anyone with a perizaad-ish eyes can woo me easily ....(perizaad is the name of a heroine who has acted in hugely non popular films like MORNING RAGA,,JOgger's park,,etc...google her pic ...!.!).!!!! )

anywayz ....i guess my thoughts are again going astray...to conclude i just wanted to say that ,,i feel i can never be a obsessive lover.....that means i don't think that i would go out of my way to attract who is not at all interested in me (whiich is the case usaully...!!)!!!!!

more on the above topic later...!!

for i suddenly i remember that i have My mid-sems exams FROM THE coming MONDAY....and by any standards these are not the thoughts that should be in my mind......

so here i go thinking about the more imp. stuff///..........'will india beat china over the next 10 years>??'...'what does abhiash means.??...''......."should i have a ice cream now..??." "...should i start studying from toommorow..?"

and as usaul at the end...start thinking....."how can my brain wonder so much..?"

anywayz ,,on a serious note.....all those who have unfortunately gone through these script of my.....please please pray for me ,,,for me to do well enough to go through these exams sailing with passing marks....!!.....i promise all of you a cheque of 200 $ .....which will bounce as soon as it enters the bank...!!!!

song in my playlist:-

1. rozana:--- will write a complete a review on it soon.....this song is killing me....sung by amitabh,,,,music by vishal..>!!

2. aasmani chhatri:- song composed by vishal again.....,,, from the film BLUE UMBRELLA///..!!!

.

life is beautiful...>!

2007-02-20T23:25:00.000+05:30

Start believing that LIFE is beautiful,,and watch it become a FACT...!

emotions..>!

2007-02-15T22:12:00.000+05:30

jahan manzill hai meri
kabhi tu woh dunya dekhon gaa
mujhey kaisay hai jeena dekhun ga
kabhi dekhun ga ja ke chura keh mein peecha kamon se
kabhi niklun ga subho shaamon se
jaoon mein jaatey pall se aagay jaoon
jaoon mein aagay je ke uss ko paoon jaoon
aagay jaoon mein

hi MISS BLOG,,,

let me start with the most often used cliche..:-

"blogging after quite some time.....(in my case egg-jactly a month..)"

anywayz....get this....!

........had to leave dad and sis to station at 4:45 in the morning........while returning did something unusaul.....send a sms to a friend in the wee hours......she replied.....i told her i was waiting down her appt.....come fast......she took it as a joke.....and asked what reason should she give at her house.......i told write three words......I AM ELOPING......keep it on your bed....and that set.....!

....i reached her appt.....smsed her to see me....from the window......said want to come but can't........i insisted....she refused....i insisted more.....and next found her sittin in the next seat .....switched on the car......we didnt speak to each other for the next 10 min or so....she smiled...i smiled///...we kept on smiling......bollywood songs never seemed more fun......ranged from salaam-e-ishq to the eternal ay haiyarathe....could have taken a himesh too......

...she pointed to the fuel indicataor......too less.....i had 20 bucks in my night suit.......she had none......discussed what we should do...i said lets take a chance .....which usaully i would'nt have.......she was apprehensive,,,,,but then gave the lets go.....

...reached a place called dumas.....she talked about how her boyfriend took her to a crowded place the other day on valentine,,blah blah.......i listened.......then i talked,,blah blah....she listened.........

...the sun still did not rise.....we had a coffee ....the woman(kaki...)there asked me why so early in the morning......she giggled ....,,,,the coffee was superb....seemed the coffee maker thought coffee meant to be a sugar conc.....or was the situation made it sweeteer.....

we returned back......i asked her..what her parents were awake by now///...she will say she went for a walk....thinking it was 6;05 instead of 5.05 ...i said great///.........we reached her house.....she said she can send some money to fuel the car...and then she said,,,,that this was one of the most exciting things she had done.....and will cherish the moments all her life......i told a pj.....i do it everyday......she giggled.....i said it was fun....and thank you for coming,i would treasure the experience too.....!!!!

reached home around 6:35 ...mom said ,,,why it took so much time...and why were you not picking the phone......i said something...she smiled...!.

....i guess sometimes,,we should flow out with our emotions...it makes life more interesting rather than the zombie we live...!!!!!

2007-01-15T21:08:00.000+05:30

THINK HARD....!!!

What is the human being's funny characteristics..??????

our contradictoriness....

we are in such a hurry to grow up, and then we long for our lost childhood.

we make ourselves ill earning money,and then spend all our money on getting well again.

we think so much about the future and we neglect the present , and thus experience neither the present nor the future.

we live as if we were never going to die,and die as if we had never lived.

the above lines hold so very true,,,made me think really hard...!

ORKUTIANS..are you game..?

2007-01-12T22:09:00.001+05:30

1.kuch mathematical gyan:--

the graph shows the growth rate of orkt users in india in 2006,,,,there were around 12 to 14 million users of orkut in india a year back which is astounding...and with the ever increasing net users ,,its market is bound to increase many folds....orkut is certainly international...!!

2. kuch personal funda's :---

well,,,a question that is being hurled on me from the past few days....

abbey ankit gadhe,,,(gadhe,,,,for all non hindi speaking junta,,it means...a highly distinguished intellectual radically thinking guy,,,,and thats why it is easily one of the most associated word to me,,,,,)(while its other meaning in plain english is..donkey!.)..

the ques is,,,abbey tu orkut main nahin hain....you deleted your account .....kya insane aadmi hain>>?
(YOU NOT IN ORKUT.,,YOU ARE AN INSANE PERSON....you deleted your account,,,how could you do it...?)

my reaction is simple yes,,,,,

i guess,,,before this question becomes of grave national importance,,,and all the news channels bang upon at my place queing up for my bytes,,let me clear it hereitself:-

first of all let me make it clear,,,,i am not trying to de grade orkut or defame orkut....or at any point i underlook upon the orkut users,,or brasil(brasil..?..i heard that it is the country with the highest amount of reg. on orkut..!)

what i am trying to clarify is why i kicked myself from it....which i dont know surpirses many friends of my more than they get surprised seeing bappi lahiri trying to speak in hindi..?

okay,, a>> why...???

on a serious note,,,,i certainly feel that the net world is another kind of virtual world which engrosses our mind.>!

and that includes my MISS BLOG,,,,,and i think the blog world and the online communities like orkut,hi5,fropper, etc.....are all virtual world...which makes us believe many things..which are not.!!

the one thing i 'hate' among the human nature is nongenuity,,artificialness,,,fictitiousness,,,,and more important using all of these characteristics....with emotions....!!!

i certainly feel,,,,the genuine ness,,in these communities is nothing but fickle..!!,

questions like,,,how you doing,,,?..how are you.?,,where were you..??,,what's up..?

are certainly questions,,which one would like to asked....'it gives you the sense of being important' ....which is one emotion on which our brain feeds...!!

but these questions when asked and more importantly when ANSWERED ,,just for the sake of doing it...is a complete let down for me...!!!

and the other important thing i condemn or rather i personally dont understand is...why show your private conversations ,,,and more importantly your emotions public .???

same can be said for the blogs.......and i dont deny it ,.....but certainly its more private....where some personal posts can be saved as a draft,,,,and you have a superb option in beta blogger where you can select your readers by keepin the blog on private option..!,,,,, !!!

but orkut helps you connect to your lost out friends..??

i completely agree on this point,,,i mean it certainly connects you like hell......springing surpises and joy....meeting your lost out mates..friends...!!...

but i feel that it certainly is not such a good place to make new friends.......just because of the simple reason stated above,,the emotions here are just not genuine..!

((winking)i have had done my share of profile hopping on unknown profiles ...arrey obviously on those of the scores of friends seeking girls out on orkut.......!. )

the one thing i found common in most of the female profiles were....

about me:- i dont like to speak much about me...!

and i bet these are the girls,,if you ask them the same question in an interview.....they would go on for the next half an hour non stop speaking about themselves.....hehe...!

i am certainly happy not being a part of it now,,and in deleting my non active orkut account .....yeh,,but maybe i would join it...,,once i pass out from my college....!!

..... the conclusion is that,,,,i dont abhor the orkut mania,,but maybe i detest the energy that is wasted negatively in being non authentic...and also the addiction part of it.....!!!

till then keep orkutting...yappy orkutting..!!!

sem 6

2007-01-09T02:00:00.000+05:30

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEE,,,,,,,,,,,

topped in the class..? girl proposed to me? cousin had a baby? some relatives marriage,,?

a big no...!!

the hurray is for my very own MISS BLOG.....this is my 101st post....and i guess it calls all the need to have a celebration....

the only thing i can say is that i have enjoyed each and every post that has been posted...

and i dont think i have still been bitten by the blog deficiency syndrome..(bds...eh..),,,whats that......well i mean to say ,,i am still not bored of this virtual world.....and i still see myself carry on posting on my perfect 'unorganized' life ...

1. COLLEGE REOPENS '6TH SEM'

WELL,,,the vaci's get over today,,and i guess it was more or less, a okay vaci....would give it 3/5 stars..in terms of utilizing it effectively..!

plans for this sem...
a. be more organized
b. be a lil more serious
i mean i really feel the need of being seriously serious....!

c. also would like to blog with less of grammatical errors this time around..!

2. RESULT OF 5TH SEM:-

yeh,,i am talking about 6th sem.....this actually implies,,i have passed the previous sem....

calls for a round of applause yaar....(background music;- pappu pass ho gaya)

i guess i fared better than what i had expected to...actually .there are more people behind me than ahead of me.....!!

anywayz on a serious note,,

,,,will try to keep a genuine smile as far as possible this sem...!!

i feel i have started sounding nonsensical....check the time its 2:37am.....and i have to start up at 7 am in the morn..wouldnt like to be late for the first class....dont knnow what i am typing....feeling deadly sleepy.....roadiezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!

listening to : dil kya kare...adnan sami,,from sallaam e ishq..!

MANGI TUNGI

2007-01-02T16:11:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,

it has been quite a while,,i have interacted with you,,,,!!

1. NEW YEAR 2007:--

well the past few days have been hectic....did what i like best...TRAVELLING..!!!
had been to
a.. mumbai,,,attended a pankaj udhas ,,kk show....loved them...!!
b. been to shirdi....obv. to have a personal meeting with our very own SAI BABA..!!
C. returned on 29th....
d. left with family and relatives,,,,on 30th to a place called MANGI TUNGI....eh...sounds like tongue twisters...

actually they are 2 huge mountains with in the satpura ranges....near a place called manmad...and in the district of nashik....maharastra......

ABOUT THE PLACE..::__

visiting such places,,,,just makes me believe more,,,how rich is our country ,,,and exploring them certainly gives me kick.....i mean i am not paricularly attracted towards...huge shopping malls,,,neat corridors,,,discos ,,etc....but certainly places like this appeals to me more....!!!

here are some of the pics.....:-

a.>>>far view of mangi tungi.....the peak on the left is mangi and on the right (more steeper) is tungi..!

see on the exterme left...down the foot of the fill.....there can be seen some temples...we had stayed there...!!

b>>we started climbing in the morning ...the view of the beautiful tungi in morning..!

C>>> as i told there are caves above and we have the around 5000 yrs old 'pratima's' of our gods up there...people of all ages climb around 5000-6000 steps to reach there.....see the pic...they go bare footed//

the climb is dangerous sometimes as there are places with no steps and railings......even i went up there...have got a sore left leg...it took me 5 hrs to go to and fro//?!!

d>> MANGI TUNGI FAR VIEW...!
e>> ONE MORE view of the huge mountain..!

f>> CAVE 1
just a few climb up...was this first cave....the statues are of the 24 tirthankaras of jains..!

met a strange looking old man outside a cave....>!

g>> the villagers ,,actually the drive to this place took around 6 hrs.....and in between could not see a single house for around 3 hrs.....these were some of the locals near the mountain...they did the work of carrying the old people up the hill on 'dolis''....my driver knew them,,.,,1

h>> the mountains were filled with these more human people...he he....monkeys.......always on the prowl to snatch the cameras...and RICE -(-which we offer in front of the statues)
i>> she was one of the many ladies who sold NIMBU PANI at diff. points on the mountains...(view the scenary behind)..,,,

j>> a typical rural home in between....wish could stay in it for some days..!!
k>> caves

l>> the view of mangi from tungi....see how it is connected...!
m>> the tambolya hill....in front of mangi tungi...see its shadow...

n>> one of the cave

o>> one more pic of the sunrising..

p>> tungi at sunset

q>> pic on the way..!
courtesy:- personal and some from net..!

had a great time on the new year eve on this place...peace ful,,quiet and serence...but had to return back in a hurry due to some unforutnate happening....will blog about it later..!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR...have a great 2007.

2006-12-23T00:23:00.000+05:30

genius SARDARJI at work....:-

so next time dont forget to take the lock to the temple..!!!....

GOLD hearted..!,

2006-12-21T23:59:00.000+05:30

i just COULD NOT resist myself to post this pic:-

he is the among the world's WISEST GUY....what say...hehe..?
did he marry the bride or the glittering stuff called gold....!!!

image source:- email forward

innocence..!!

2006-12-21T09:46:00.000+05:30

"GOD BLESS THE BULDING AND ALL THE HOUSE OF MY BULDING" from bunny...!

hey before you jump and suggest me to re admit myself into a preschool....the above line is written by bunny...NOW the question arises,,,WHO BUNNY..?/,,,well bunny is a boy studying in the second standard...and the above line was written outside his flat.....!!!

so apart from me taking from bunny maths tutions.......i enjoy playing with him...!!

i mean ,,,there are about 6 small children in my BUILDING......i hope the spelling is right.....anywayz the age of these children are 2 in preschool 2 in sr. kg,,,2 in second std. and 1 in first std.eh...2+2+2+1=6..hell...

i do make it a point that i play with them once in a while ,,,when all of them play together in the evenings.....i guess,,it serves like a tonic...seeing there innocence takes me aback sometimes....!

it makes me think "was i so innocent at their age......i doubt..??"......

and reading the above line ,,,made me think again.....it made me smile...!!!!

wish they dont grow at all...!!!

mesmerized....!!!

2006-12-13T23:17:00.000+05:30

MAULA MERE MAULA....::---

FILM:-- ANWAR..!

mesmerized..........that would be the perfect word...... completely engrossed with this composition.......composed by a new comer MITHOON(no he is not our very own mithun 'disco' chakravarthy......he is mithoon sharma ,,who recently composed the TERE BIN sung by atif.in bas ek pal..)

bloody the music director is just 21......and just hear the richness of the sounds ,,,,pure magic.....tabla,,electronic vibes....,,,a perfect blend of indian classical sufi fusion music...hear it to believe it....>!!!!

the song appeals to me as inspirational(for the honesty of work),,,,pure,,,positive,,,and it renders the so very complex feelings of thoughts and emotions into a very simple melody....!!!

sung effortlessly,,,,by ROOP KUMAR RATHOD.....sung beautifully,,,giving clear vibrations to each and every single word...especially the alaaps,,and the elevationas and depth he gives to the compostions.....mesmerized////
..loved this guy previously for his voice in GUNGANATI HUI...song composed by VISHAL...and obv. DIL KO...(film rhtdm),,,,music by harris jayraj.....!!!!

the lyrics to this song given is by one of my fav writer SAYEED QADRI...masterpiece....!!!!!

extremely SOOTHING song ..........

LISTEN IT 2-3 times,,,for the magic to work on you.....>!!!!!

loved a song after much time,,,,,the last one was NAINA(sung by rahet fateh ali khan,,music by vishal/// from the film OMKARA./....lyrics by gulzar...!!)......

highly recommended ,,,try it out...!!!

i am FREE......!!!

2006-12-11T16:31:00.000+05:30

1. YOLI--DAYS are here again....!!!!

ufff...>!!!!,,,, atlast finished this sem,,,,gave all the hordes of midsems,,,tests,,retests,,,more tests.,,prac exams,,,vivas,,quizzes,,,,seminars,,,and the baap of all this the end semss.....!!

seems like had more exam days than actual teaching classes.,...

reviewing this sem...i guess i learnt a lot,,,

a. how to line maroofying the young ad hocs...,,,wish they paid more attention on their subject rather than their looks..!!

b. sit quietly,,,in the classes taken by the senior professors,,,,,and read the editorial page of my fav, paper...TOI.(times of india of course...)...!!!!

c. solve the various puzzles,,,sudoku's given in the extra pages.....(had to sometimes fight for it with others to grab one,,,when i forget to bring the paper///!!)

d. and of course ,,,even learnt that we had six subjects......HEAT TRANFER,,,MASS TRANSFER,,,hmm....CHEMICAL ENG, THERMODYNAMICS....GENERAL CHEMICAL TECHNOLOGY....FLUID FLOW OPERATIONS....and which was the last one..

...MECHANICAL OPERATIONS...of coure how can i forget this subject.....the end sem paper of this paper seemed,,,like entering your neighbours house,thinking its yours.......
for the first 10 min...it seemed that the invilagator had given me some other subject's question paper.....then the girl sitting behind me asked....."ANKIT kuch aata hain kya...."!!

and these words sounded like divine blessings to me....it gave me the confidence that i was not the only one to feel alien....phir kya,,,CHAK DE PHATTE...de dhaana dhan.....whatever came to my mind,,kept on scribbling it/////.....hopefully will pass in it...!!

conclusion:---- will prepare or rather gather all the relevant subject notes,,one week before the exams.....!!!

b> AB KYA ...what will you do now...????

feel like packing my bags,,,,,catch the next train to rajasthan.....and explore the cities of alwar,,,barmer.....udaipur,,,havent been there......though have been to most of the parts of south rajasthan.....!!!

but that doesnt feasible now.....!!!

got a one months holiday....!!!

1. buy A CYCLE.....hero hawk.........!!

no,,,not for saving the petrol expenses of my bike,,and car...,,but i guess i always have a inlination towards cycling and walking rather than zooming on bikes,,,dhoom ishtyle... .!!

2. do a bit of yoga.....ramdev maharaj ki jai....i hope i do...!!

3. have decided will go to temple before eating anything......!!

the reason,,,,for going to temple i will have to take up bath early....and also get up early.....dekha LOGIC HAIN NA...!!

4. solve and improve some more aptitude questions...!!

will have placement session after this sem....dekhte hain kaun se company mein mujhe select karne ka dum hain...!!

5. improve my vocabs,,,,,

6. play more tennis (table as well as lawn...)

7. take care of my bulging body,,,hairs....etc...!!

that would suffice i guess....!!

song in my play list....:- DIL JO BHI KAHEY MAANGE.....sung by shaan....love this song....any hindi speakin homo sapiens,,,do listen to it....!!

yeh...also watched,,,,CASINO ROYALE.....saala it was a edited version,,,,most of the much awaited steamy scenes censored out...enjoyed the movie,,especially the first action scene...thrilling....kudos...!!!

notmyjob.com!!

2006-11-28T22:37:00.000+05:30

1.NOT MY JOB:-
it happens only in INDIA......funny isnt it...!!

2. dining table and chairs made of crystals:-

howzzat,,,!

2006-11-26T00:29:00.000+05:30

1. fevicol---liked the idea...

2. THOUGHT PROVOKING:--- :- read the promise,,,,,on the note....

funny illustration:- isnt it..?

.. SIS BIRTHDAY-

WELL TODAY IS THE day when INDIA in our house was born... ,,,,india' here means my sis....so why ? india...... actually dad considers us the india pakistan brother sisters.....
mom says ,,' i usaully pray that .....atleast on one....opinion your both ideas match....'

so the basic line is that we are poles apart....
she is a too positive person.,,,,while i am equally pessimistic...!!

she is too enthusiastic about any thing she does.....!!

she is too quick in taking any decisions(and most of the time it back fires...) ,,but the best part is that ,,she doesnt think what went wrong after that....!!

i told her to opt for an mba....but she is woking as a teacher in a PRE SCHOOL...and always tells me ,,she is having the time of her life between the small tiny tots.....she does believe that,,,it is a privelege to work in such a beautiful and innocent envionment...!!!!

well,,,i presented her 'at the stroke of midnight' with a bouquet consisting of 6 sunflowers,,2 roses,,,some white decorative stuff.....got it specially made for her... bought a black forest cake....!!

right now she is busy with her friends and the bloody phone,,,going on ringing like hell,,,,,!!!!

i simply adore her..and more than that i respect her as a woman,a sister , a daughter.......though never admitted in front of her...and she doesnt know that i have my own blog.....but i am sure she knows my feelings...,,>>!!.

3. exam time

have my exam time up,,,,got three exams on monday.....hope to do well.....will sleep now and get up early(hopefully..!)....!!!

wish me luck,,,,,,!

time limit...!!@!

2006-11-23T09:59:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

welll as usaul in a fix again......

1. have a test tommorroww.......

studying for that will ,,,,,,,,,,,,unravel the mysstery's of PAPER AND PULP industry,,SUGAR industry....starch.....and i dont what else.....

still am not sure about the course/////...!!

2. have a presentation tommorrow,,,,,

and have yet not started to make the power point presentaion.......
i guess,,,,
tommorrow will be legally allowed to torture my classs mates.....!!!

3. have to attend a 'HAPPY birthday party' today:-

thinking of skipping it.....~~~~..
.nah ........me ,,,and leaving a chance to gobble food and that too served for free......no chance,,,,!!

anywayz hope to survive the day:---well................

listening to ::--- panchi hoon......by JAL....!!

innovation...!!

2006-11-20T18:53:00.001+05:30

1. INNOVATIVE ADD......isn't it...??/

2. LAPTOP.....wish could have one like that:--.

GYAN FILTRATION

2006-11-19T21:59:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,

well,,for a start,,,i have changed the header of MISS BLOG....quite after some time....and it goes this way
GYAN FILTRATION.....

miss blog(mb)>>>so why this wierd heading,,,??/

actually studying a chapter called filtration for a test this coming wednesday....also lined up is a presentation on a topic called LIQUID DISPERSION EQUIPMENTS......hope i dont get dispersed presenting it,,,

anywayz also lined up is the prac exams,,viva,,submissions and the godfather of all exams.....called END SEMESTER EXAM...starting from 4th dec. to 9th dec.....!!!!

mb>>> but why the hell GYAN FILTRATION,,,,,,??

hey mb,,,,,on a serious note......!!!

for the past few days......i am getting or actually going through a mixed bag of feelings,,,,i was/am feeling a little bit out of sorts.....i mean something was/is making me feel guilty of something.......and to sort it out,,,there is no one better than you MISS BLOG....!!!!

okay getting more serious now....(coming out of this virtual world..)

yeh....so what is making me feel guilty.....

a.>> i am feeling as if ,,,,i am not performing well...one of the duties entrusted on me......and that is the duty of doing justice with my talents,,abilities,,,etc.....(eh....though they maybe +nt in a very minte proportions..),,,but i guess thats not the point......the point is ,,,i should try to maximize it to whatever level i can ascend it to....!!!

and this is not neccessary including studies......but actually pertains to all my activities.....!!!!

so what i have decided is to priortise my stuff...:----

and this is what i have decided:----
1. health

2. being happy,,keep my 'colgate' smile

3. being passionate about the things i do

4. give my 200% to whatever i will do....to my best abilities...be it my with relationships,studies,blogging...etc .!!

5. think of now.....not of the future too much ...!!!

6. think of the process....rather than wondering of the final result of any activity...!!

7. develop more positivity or rather seriousness ....!!

8. be more focussed...!!

9. be a master of time management...!!

and yeh stop thinking or rather think less of all these questions...!!!.
what is life?,,,purpose of life???,,,,what is success???/...and all those ever confusing questins for which reaching to a concrete answers is not so easy..!!!!

i guess,,,,i should learn from my past experience,,,,when i was preparing for securing a seat in IIT......ended up in a NIT.....though have no regrets....for i had tried my best.....!!!

but actually that period had taught me that,,,,,,to succeed,,,,,you need to be extremely focussed,,,,,,

or as told in BHAGWAD GITA......"do all the activities keeping KRISHNA at the center.....all your deeds should be towards him..."...

same way.....my major activities should be directed towards.....bettering myself,,,,keep myself improving.....in other words maximize my abilities.....!!!!

the solution :---- get real.....stop playing hide and seek with life and yeh....take it full on.....!!!!

and MISS BLOG....you will be the only 'so called ' virtual world of my through which i will be interacting...!!!
and thereby alongwith the personal....buffoonery stuff.....i will regularly update you with some gyan....

that is .......writing my review on whatever i read,,,the editiorial page of the newspaper,,,sports....new words....etc...etc......!!!!!

and yeh ,,,will try to update you during the exams sessions.....regularly.....!!!!
LISTENING TO:-

1. JABSE MILI TUMSE MERI NAZAR--------

from the album kabhi aisa lagta hain' sung by LUCKY ALI--- big fan of this unconventional singer...!!

2. DESIRE

a besutiful song from the album 'carnival of rust' by POETS OF THE FALL---love this band...!!

3. BRING ME TO LIFE...

evanescence

reading:--- finished MY DAYS----autobiography of RK narayanan.... okay,,,simple book.....will come up with its review...>!!!

NOW READING:--- LINE OF FIRE-written by general musharraf....sis bought the book...though i had no curiousity for it.....seems interesting....!!!

had been to iskcon temple today.....enjoyed the satsang..,,,chanting HARE KRISHNA ,,HARE KRISHNA ,KRISHNA KRISHNA HARE HARE......danced like hell for about a hour with the other devotteess......this was the first time had attended such sort of satsang......enjoyed it...!!!

macchu picchu ....!!!

2006-11-14T22:10:00.000+05:30

DO CLICK ON THE PIC ---TO GET AN ENLARGED VADA IMAGE(worth it):-

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

it seems this is not a photoshoped image---mean to say,,,there is no special effects added to the image,,,
thats what the email in which this image was forwarded said.....!!!
hard to believe,,,,,would love to view the place personally(place is called macchu picchu):-

GURU....MASTERS AT WORK..!

2006-11-13T20:10:00.001+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

the wait is almost over,,,cant wait to get my hands on the cd of GURU,,,,,

GURU:-----

a film consisting of a team,,,to which assigning any apellation or superlatives would be like 'lighting a matchstick in front of sun'(eh....what is that...):-

music given by BOSS AR RAHMAN ,,,directed by MANI RATNAM,,,,lyrics by GULZAR...:-

need i say anymore........>!!!!,,

,and consists OF abhishek bacchhan and 'miss artificial smile' aishwarya rai...as the lead actors,,,with the film influenced by the life of yet another legend DHIRUBHAI AMBANI....!!!,,,CANT WAIT TO hear its music,,,see the movie:-

here are a few links to its music teasers:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xc6LNs3veHM

try it out....just hear tera bina teasers...!!!

COPY AND karan THAPAR

2006-11-06T23:10:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG...

DONT KNOW HOW TO START,,,,!!...for i dont know what to scribble....but just want to babble,,,,banter about anything and everything....whatever that is going on in my under developed mind...!!!

MISS BLOG(mb)>>>> why ankit....such sudden urge to rant here...???i hope everything is fine.....i mean ,,,,i hope you haven't crashed yet again with the car somewhere///??/....or i guess,,,,have you been listenning to himesh reshammiya more often nowadays,,,,???.....dad scolding you...fought with your sis....??..or have you not done well in your exams....??...you sound in a 'not so feel good' mood..!!...quite rare ..!!!

me>>>
hey MISS BLOG....you pretty well enough that whatever you have mentioned are not so strong or rather minor issues,,,,to concern me...!!!!!

it does not irritate me much to know that i have done badly in my exams,,but rather what irrritates me more is when i come to know is that the answer i copied from the next guy is wrong....!!..i mean all sheer hard work of copying gone in vain ...it is certainly a grave depressing situation....for when i copy...:-

it honestly makes me feel guilty guilty internally...and when the answer goes wrong ...it ends you up in a situation where,,,,
in your heart you are left with a sulken feeling fpr being dishonest,,and to top it your answer is wrong...which by default had to be wrong most probably....thereby cursing your self...that i should have written the more stupidier answer to the 'wrongly copied question' that had come in my mind.....
atleast you would have felt better..that you were original///...!!

anywayz leaving that apart.....i guess a far more graver dipressing situation is where...the other guy who has copied all the answers from you HAS SCORED MORE THAN YOU...??/

anywayz want get into the technicalities of this aspect of situation..!!!

okay,,,so lets scribble on something.....it has been quite a while where i have felt the urge to blog....honestly...!!!

hmmm.....lets speak about KARAN THAPAR.!!!

MISS BLOG>> what thapar....who the the hell he his.....and why are you thinking about him....hey ankit....i hope you have not changed your preferences....i mean ...hell!!i hope guyz are not interesting you instead of the sharapova's and kareena's ..??.

me>> abbey.MB..iss bolte hain RAI KA PAHAD......

there are quite a few personalities....who motivate or rather i respect them for their work..?? and karan thapar is one of themm..!!!

so who is he..???? well he is a television host and commentator of international repute.....he is the same person

who had made KAPIL DAV cry like a baby in his interview...!!
who made taken musharraf's interview in pakistan and forced him to pass a statement "that he wants to start a dialogue with india"
because of his penetrative questions..??

in one of his interview,,,JAYA LALITHA ...at the end refused to shake hands with him....and said that it was not at all pleasure to meet him..and that it was a big blunder she made to be interviewed by him.!!

he virtually beclothed ramadoss-the union health minister,,,,in a recenetly conducted interview...??

and the biggest one....HE VIRTUALLY RAPED ARJUN SINGH ...here is the link to the transcripts of the interview...do read it??

http://www.ibnlive.com/news/decision-on-quota-is-final-arjun/11063-4-0.html

just read the interview....it will not only show how foolish our hrd minister is..??but rather also show how meticulus and precise and well prepared this guy is...!!!!!..many of the ques,,the minsiter replies..."i dont know"..!!

i mean kudos to this guy...he is like a harsh mirror for his guests!!!

conlusion:-
mr. karan thapar really inspires me to train my mind to be as clear,precise and logical...as are his questions...!!!

reading:- MY DAYS by RK LAXMAN

listening to :- illusions and dreams BY POETS OF FALL...superb finnish band...anyone those who are reading this blog... pass me some more songs of these band if you have them..!!!!

It's whatever makes you see, makes you believe
And forget about the premonition you need to conceive
The images they sell are illusion & dream
In other words dishonesty!!

hey have decided to be more regular in blogging....!!!!,,i mean i really want to...to hell with the exams ..!!!

and btw...my suggestion for anyone copying...

.before blankly xeroxing from someone's copy....make sure that the fool is sure about that answer...otherwise be honest.....!!

peace,!!!

diwali..that it was..!!!

2006-11-01T21:49:00.000+05:30

hey MISS BLOG,,,

how are you doing...???

well as usaul i have myself screwed from all sides possible....namely,,

aage ,,peeche,,upar ,,down...!!!

diwali was superb,,,,!!!..it was one of its kind,,,,very few lucky one's get to spend a diwali like this...!!!

so this is what happened to me on the D-day....!!

finished the puja...,,invited all the goddess ,,gods....to bless my life,,,my home...(blessing is equivalent to MONEY and more money....)!!!

just joking..>!!

yeh,,so after all the puja's ,,,teasing sis on the rangoli she had made,,,lighting the diya's,,smsing HAPPY DIWALI mssgs...///.....i was ready to get set roam on the streets with my friends coming to mmy home....!!!

when suddenly....my mom came running to me.."...ankit...'rudra',,,has got his head banged...and is bleeding profusely.."

btw, rudra is a small kid of 3 years i guess(going to a playgroup)...naughty,cute,lively.....as all kids usaully are !!!......apart from that,,he is my lucky charm ...i mean i make it a point to play with him or wave him bye,,while going to give a exam.....or mostly playing with him(it just uplifts my soul)....i hope he never grows up......just jokin.....but i like kids in the age group of 3-6...!!!!

okay,,coming to the incidence.....his mom....in a truly filmy melodramatic way got unconscious at the sight of blood stream from her son's head.....!!!

so i ,mom,sis and few other neighbours took him to the hospital......wheere it was detected that he had bursted his head...and needed 4 stitches.....!!!

and being one of the male present there,,,,the doctor told me to hold his legs tightly,,,while he was inserting the anaesthetic injection on the wound...!!!

it was one of the most painful sight i have ever seen in my life...,,

all the while the tiny tot was shouting.."anki bhaiya,,ghar chalo"..and was crying his lungs out////....!!!

while i was telling him...."bas ho gaya,,,chalo bomb phoodenge abhi..!!"

anywayz,,,the other sight which caught me in the hospital..was the patients out there....lightning diya's near the bed....returned back,,and went to the 24 hr medicine shop to get obviously medicines for my small hero.....!!!

anywayaz,,,,apart from that,,,,,went to an excursion with family and family friends,,to daman..,,,diu,,,,,UMARGAM in the diqali vaci.....and stayed in a resort for the first time....it was fun...!!,,,will blog about it later...!!

have exams lined up next week....!!!

listening to peterpan:- (song where 'kya mujhe pyar hain' is lifted..!)!!!

you can get the song here :-

http://ia300109.us.archive.org/3/items/Peter_Pan__Tak_Bisakah/PeterpanTakBisakah.mp3

Link to the original song in mp3 format

ek pal...!!!!!

2006-10-23T02:00:00.000+05:30

hey miss blog,,,

sorry to disturb you yet again.....even i am totally unimpressed by this habit of my......sleeping late and getting up more late during the holidays.....!!!

just returned back after a night out with friends

,,,,,,head is spinning,,,for most of the talks revolved around:-

1. about girls

2. more girls..

3. more more girls

4. girlfriends

5. break ups

6. happy new year

7. don , sharukh...amitabh...

8. setting(here setting means '' )

9. orkut

i mean its not that i dislike these topics,,,,but i really abhor , detest it when it gets more of repetitive and with no sense of genuinity..>!!!

anywayz had a good time.....went to have tea near the station...and then we talked some sense after that,...!!!

the ride in the car was though fun...playing the songs at considerable volume and all of us singing along...!!!!

okay ,,,the new year according to the hindu calender has just started...!!!!

so lets start the year on a more positive note....

will try to be more productive(eh.........i mean with repect to time...),,,and will blog more regularly......!!!!!

for MISS BLOG,,,,interacting with you is really one of the better things ,,i feel that helps me in getting many aspects more clearer....!!!!!

songs in my head:-

1. will download bas ek pal remix song now,,,!!!

2. kya yeh sach hain----by euphoria...!!!

upma..........!!!!

2006-10-18T23:14:00.000+05:30

eh...i selected the title of the post before writing the post.....quite rare for me...!!

but why UPMA......,,for the simple reason.....i had it today in dinner......

upma....dinner...????,,,,,,, any south indian reading this combination,,,,would have the same feeling,,,,like a north indian gets...when he sees a SAMOSA dipped in SAMBHAR......!!!!

anywayz the day was quite useful......actually it is diwali time....and with diwali comes 'cleaning time'....i mean cleaning your house,,rooms....your pockets,bank balance....etc.......!!!!

and when today i woke up at 10:30 am........and came out of my room.....sis wished me,,actually taunted ,,,,,GOOD AFTERNOON tonu....!!!

and as i was about to bombard her with a facial expression resembling ' a person suffering from constipation'///.......mom says to me..
..ANKIT....bejan daruwala has predicted that yor room will be cleaned today..>!!!!

i said .....so what.....sis will clean my room as usaul every year........!!!!

but this time with nothing to do,,,i started cleaning my room .....which went this way//:-

1. assembled my books,,,scattered evrywhere

2. bifurcated it to technical,nontechnical..!!

3. cleaned the drawers...

4. alligned the books this way

a. this sems book in one drawer
b. competitive books,puzzle books in another
c. essential books
d. reading,fictional collection in drawer
e. files and folders in other
f. assembled all the certificates in one
G. non wanted books separated out.!!

then assembled all my stationaries found from different places in one drawer..!!!

the most imp. part,,,,then cleaned my computer.....i mean the hard disk first...!!!

made the appropriated folders for the hordes of songs, e books.,,,documents.////..deleted the unwanted stuff...!!!

then cleaned the computer.....and the computer and study table..!!!!

found all the cards, letters(.. one written by my mom to me while i was away,,it was in hindi,,,reading it,,,bought tears to my eyes..i dont know why.!!!!,),,

then did the lighting work in the house,,,i mean not fixing the bulbs,tubelights....but rather the electric decoration...done outside the house,balconies......while sis was making the rangoli..>!!!!

and after the dinner,,,mom hugged me .,,when she saw my room...and stuffed me with a sweet....while sis prepared a chocolate shake for me....i guess i am sounding KIDDISH......but all this moments make up what is called life...!!!

have got deadly tired now.......

the point is....why am i writing all this inconsequential stuff...!!!

for the simple reason..."I GUESS,,I Am for a change quite satisfied with the work i did today....i cleaned my room systematically....yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee>!!"

anywayz HAPPY DIWALI,,,,AND A WARM wishes for the NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU....!!!!!!!!!!!

hope you have your rooms cleaned....!!

listening to DOR THEME.:_....superb theme,,,listening to the flute part of it chokes my heart.....!!!

thank you......GOD..>!!!

2006-10-15T22:47:00.000+05:30

(unedited post.,,,,,,dont know whether it makes any sense.....???)

hi MISS BLOG,

its has been quite a while that i talked to you,,,,!!

anywayz i am hale and hearty,,,,,,,,(this is the most often repeated line i have come across in most of the mails....why do they start this way....!!!!!)

okay let me start again.......in plain words.....i am still alive,,,,or in other words.....ZINDA hoon main.......!!!!

first let me thank GOD in my own way.........

BTW,,,,who said that,,,,,,,,god is perfect...not possible ,,,he has created me...>!!!

hi kaise hhoon upparwale.....agar aap sun rahain hain to.......THANK YOU GOD.....FROM THE bottom of my heart ,,,i say it again........thank you god for everything ....!!!

before MISS BLOG....you interpret this statement of my as yet another stunt.....let me make it clear.....i mean each and every word of it,,,!!!!

MISS BLOG:-- WHY ???? suddenly ANKIT....SEEMS the spiritual bug has bitt you again.??

me:- i guess....yes..,,,,,i recently saw a deadly accident around 1:30 am in the night ,,,,,when i was returning from the hostel....!!!!!!!

cant still get the scene from out of my head.....the guy was coming to my direction at full speed in his bike......and suddenly ,,what happened i dont know....but at next sight right in front of my four eyes(2 natural+ 2 artificial).....the guy along with the bike rolled around 4 times....and slid on the ground....!!!!

i got out from the bike....thought he must be having bruises.....but to my horror when i turned him to lift him....his face had been totally smashed with blood profusely coming out from the head....!!!!!!

luckily just in front was a hospital.............the worst thing here was ,,,,there were a group of boys out there,,,,,,who were showing apprehensions to carry him to the hospital......
honestly,,,,even i thought once,,,,, I GUESS THAT IS WHAT IS MAKING ME FEEL MISERABLE....i mean my instantaneous reaction was to lift him.....but suddenly one from the group of boys who knew me said,,,,

ANKIT ---rehne de...!!!

and that words compelled me to think once......and i guess ,,that was really inhuman from my side......how could i think in that way...???

but ,,suddenly some more people gathered and they lifted the unfortunate guy to the hospital.....and then we admitted him to the hospital......!!!

i lifted his bike and parked it to a safer place......and then gave the keys to the receptionist in the hospital...>!!!

next morning i went by the hospital ,,,,,the bike was not there,,,,!!!

maybe they have shifted him to some other hospital.....

i pray to god:----hope he is fine and becomes HALE AND HEARTY in truer sense....!!!

also i thank god for blesing me with such beautiful senses,,i mean ears,,eyes.......and also please please benedict me with a sharper and stronger brain to react to such incidences...!!!

cant get the scene of the injured guy's face from my head.....it will always remind me to be more thankful to god.....thankful for everything he has given me as well as not given me..>!!!!!

TAGGED....!!

2006-09-24T20:15:00.000+05:30

posting this post from a dangerous place called HOSTEL----if you have not heard of this place...its the place where great conspiracies are made up,,,where you learn the exotic secrets of life....posting it from my friends room...!!!!

got tagged by NIDHI..... a fellow blogger friend.....whom i discovered recently.....HOPE my answers makes some sense for a change....!!!!

so here i go MRS. nidhi..>!!!!

WHAT ACCORDING TO YOU ,IS A BLOG..???

blog hmm...

* where one can express his/her creativity
* feel that he is being heard
* just gives you the chance to express your opinions, reviews,,,on anything and everything

and for a person like me,,,,

ii guess,, blog just gives me the chance to babble, banter about anything...!

also blog gives me the chance to prioritise my feelings,,i mean MISS BLOG as i refer,,,,helps me to clear many things,,,as i blog about my day to day life...>!

and sometimes i feel...that to stop thinking about any stuff .,,,IS TO BLOG ABOUT IT ,,,!

HOW DID YOU COME TO KNOW ABOUT BLOGGING..?

actually a friend of mine....had started blogging...and gave me his link....in fact helped a novice like me to make a account......!!

but the irony..is that ,,he has stopped blogging....while i am stuck up here as a big-time blogger...!

HOW FAR IT HAS CHANGED YOUR PERCEPTION>>??

perception about what,.,,,that i am a fool.....i guess...it has only reconfirmed it further,,,,,i have blogged in the most wierd hours of time,.,!!!

though honestly,,,,i feel it has really changed my perception immensely on many subjects and emotions,,,thanks to the superb bloggers i have come acroosss..!!

ARE YOU TRUE TO YOURSELF WHILE BLOGGING...!??

I GUESS,,,,its the reverse way around....its blogging which helps me get to my true self many a times...!

ANY BLOG,you wish to be the author of???

I GUESS,,no;...but certainly would like to imbibe certain characteristic of some of the bloggers...no not in the writing style,..,.i mean that is inconsequential for me....but certainly....would like to imbibe,,,how they use their blog to make themselves maybe more happier,,,or getting into a comfortable zone,,>!

WHAT IT HAS PREACHED YOU..?

be yappy.....!,,,or maybe share your sadness with your BLOG....to feel better..!!

TWO OF YOUR FAV. BLOG'S///..??

tough task.....!!

1. KESHI ji from kangaroo land :
what can i say,,,,am a big time fan of her blog.....love the way she blogs,,

her posts always makes a dumbo like me to think ...!!!!

the best thing i like about her,,is the way she communicates and reaches to her fellow blogger...!!

2. DEXTEROUS DOINGS:-
it is one of the first blog,,which i came across during my early blogging days....!!
the links he suggests,,,,always leaves me wondered..>!!!

his posts are mostly infrmative,,,innovative,,and one of its kind...fun to spend time on his blog..!!

and i GUESS,,,,I LOVE ALL THOSE BLOGS....WHICH are done honestly...which make no sense......all those blogs in which i have commented are all my FAV. BLOGS...!

any Blog friends ! who are they? and why?

not many,,,though i treasure the ones i have.... ganga, keshi, nirwaji,vivekanand,vivek, smiling gal, nidhi, neha,lavanya,jeevan.......also these are the blogs,,i comment regularly...and yours truly MISS BLOG...!

If provided opportunity would you like to meet a fellow blogger? Who? and why?

each and everyone mentioned above...>!!!!!

name a blogger, who comments regularly in each post of yours?

i guess,,,,,keshi ji,,,,would qualify for it....i mean most of my blogs...she does comment..!!!

A blog, where you comment regularly?

nirwaji, keshi,,.,,,,would qualify for it...!!

How does it feel to be called as a blogger?

ANKIT and blogger---feels like heaven..ala RAYMONDS..!

ONE OF YOUR FAV POSTS BY FELLOW BLOGGERS..?/

any of the posts of the blogs mentioned above,,,and also the posts on which i comment can be considered as one of my fav../???

ONE BLOG WHICH INSPIRED YOU??

i guess...USELESS INNOVATOR....it's the best blog to get inspired...after going through his posts it inspires you mostly in a negative way,,,,,like boxing the screen in front of you....,,killing the stray dogs running in your lane,,,...!!!!

i tag,,,each and everyone having the patience to read this line...you are caught,,,now get going..>!!?

NEVER..nahi....NA...!

2006-09-14T22:00:00.000+05:30

i always been taught from my growing days.,,,,,,

that there are four main directions,,,,,the north,south , east and i guess the last one is west...>!

also one more thing.....that the sun rises from east and sets in the west,,,,,(i hope i am right)...>!

so why am i bantering all this stuff here,,,!

actually i have a study desk.......its in the west direction...... ,, to the north west of the study desk,,,,or in simple words swinging the study chair 90 degrees to the right,, something called computer is situated,,,,,,!

i guess something is wrong with VAASTU.....for whenever i sit on the study desk,,,,,my chair takes a 90 degree turn automatically,,,and my hand mechanically goes and switches on the machine.......and with the advent of something called hard disk and the concept of loading it with muzik......!

the next few hours goes marvelling the creation of sound...
..and then with the adjunct of a broadband conection to the computer ,,,you get a deadly potent weapon called INTERNET.......!!!

so this INTERNET.....takes your attention for infinite time,,,until i take a 180 degree turn.....from where on the north east is located a wall clock which shows you something called time...!

WHAT IS TIME????

seeing the time,,,suddenly makes you realize that the purpose of sitting me on this chair,,,was to STUDY.....!!!!!!!

so as i have realised this ,,,,,let me end this badage with my MISS BLOG.....!!!!!!!

at the end my suggestion is,,,,,,please dont have your study table and the computer side by side,,,,,its against vaastu....om shanti om,,,,.!!!!

morning blues....>!!!

2006-09-13T08:16:00.000+05:30

hey goodu morning miss blog,,,

didnt sleep the whole night,,,,

not the perfect start for a day:-

1. my eyes are feeling heavy....!

2. feeling guilty:- due to this event

a. friend told me to arrange something
b. i did that in the night
c. by disturbing a third person,,who resides at my apartment,,,
d. the third person in order to oblige me,,took the pains to do the stuff...i mean it was a profesional engagement
e. the friend backed out...!
f. had to cancel the order...with the third person

resulting:- my relation with the third person is strained

i guess the magnitude of the problem is not soo large,,,,but i just hate people backing out from words,,,,,and especially proffessional engagements,,,,,
and in this situation,,,,,i am left as a polar bear dancing in the sahara desert,,,
and this thought is bugging my mind,,,,!

thought for day::-
arrey yaar,,,bug up.....there are people backing out from marriages,,,life long promises,,,,your is a small case.....just say a genuine sorry nest time you see the third person....and dont think about it now,,,!

UPDATED:-

the sucker friend is calleing me now --that he wants the deal back,,,what should i do.>!

listening to:- robbie williams-tripping

listening to : JOHN MEYEr-CLARITY

I worry, I weigh three times my body
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain

Ooh ooh ooh ooh

By the time I recognize this moment
This moment will be gone
But I will bend the light, pretend that it somehow lingered on
Well all I got's

Ooh ooh ooh ooh

And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will pay no mind
That it won't and it won't because it can't
Because it just can't
It just can't
It's not supposed to

LAGEY RAHO.....!!!

2006-09-11T01:10:00.000+05:30

well its a long time since i came up with a film or music review,,,,,,,now its not like i am big-time film critic or i have very intellectual music observer,,,,,but writing reviews over something just gives me a kick.....personally...!!!

and here i sit to write a review on LAGEY RAHO MUNNABHAI....!

I GUESS ITS THE OTHER WAY AROUND,,,,its one of the few films which will make you do a review over yourself...rather than someone reviewing the anatomy of this film....!

actually whatever i am going to scribble is just going to be a instantaneous reaction on this movie ,,,i just came back after watching this movie......and let me tell you,,,had a really quality time out there in the theatre.... ...!

it was really heart warming to see all the people leave the theatre with a genuine smile...!

everything about the movie was just perfect.....!

hats off,,,,to RAJU HIRANI.....i guess...after ashutosh gowariker,,,,i guess he is a director who has made both his film with fullto honesty.....!!!

i mean coming with such a straight from the heart film ,,after getting super stardom with munnabhai mbbs....speaks vollume about the director....!

as my mom said after the film,,,,,"THE FILM JUST CLEANED THE HEART,,AND THE FILTHY STUFF OF OUR BRAINS,,,,ATLEAST FOR SOME TIME....!",,,AND i guess this is what you call quality time ,,,and real magic of movie...!

so if you understand considerable HINDI,,,,and you havent yet seen the film,,,,YOU ARE MISSING something...>every hindi speaking junta is highly recommended to view this film!

personally liked the movie more than the first one...though both are polished gems,,,!

---AM I DREAMING---

2006-09-09T01:58:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG,,,,

a> i guess,,it had to happen.....i mean it was not intended.....see the clock:- it says 2 :05 am....!

its the time when respectable,,,,hard working ,,honest,,,,and also the other sect of people i.e. laloo ,rabri,mayawati,jaya lalitha,,u(p)ma bharati...must be absorbed in an intense state of yoga called sleep,,,,,!

b.>>> today had got up at 6 am.....had to drive to a temple ,,,,,,50 KMS away from from where i stay....there was a ritual in the temple,,,,i also performed one...!!

got back at 1:45 pm....driving in the mumbai-surat highway....my heart was somewhere in the mouth..,,anywayz drived successfully and more imptly.. SAFELY back to home..!

attended the class scheduled at 1:30 .....i mean i reached at 2:oo pm.. the teacher allowed me in..,, was not expecting it...!

reached home around 4,,,,slept...got up at around 6:oo pm......thanks to a friend's call///..

he:- kya kar rahain hain bey..

i:- soo rahan tha yaar....!

he:- pagal ho gaya hain kya....so rahan hain.....main aa raha hoon...!

i:- ek baar aa to ja......phir bataonga...utha diya.....kareena ko main propose karne wala hi tha ..>,,, utha diya...!

he:- abbey,,lets study///

i:- jumped up...(i have a test)...aa ja ....jaldi...i will be ready...!

he reached at 6:30 pm......

we studied for the next 3 hrs.......the imp. topics covered by both of us were:-

1. how he enjoyed his trip to pune,,

2. how he said to a unknown girl studying in some fergusson college in pune at a cafe:-
'you look great in this dress,,,!'

3. how i had banged my beautiful car once to a scorpio

4. we talked to a common friend--on the phone

5. coffee break--more talks...!

so as you must have found out.....we covered hardcore engineering concepts in 3 HRS...

went on a drive with him,,,and to drop him to his home......,,,!

when we reached his house....he asks me:-

"ankit! where do you see yourself after 10 yrs from now.....corporate boss,,wife,,children,,driving a A segment car!"

i said:-"na yaar!!!be happy then too///!!as i am now ...!"

"ankit ! what is success according to you....!"

i :-"abbey,,bimaar ho gaya hain kya.....sab thik hain na....!"

he:- "bol na"

i:- "dont know,.,,maybe will be consider myself successful...if i am able to pursue my passions i.e. travelling,,,driving .,,,listening to music,,films...etc...bla blah !"

talked a lil more;;;;; returned back......but instead of returning home,,,,went on a long drive alone......and i dont know,,,,but was smiling all the way,,,thinking about the question my close had friend had asked me innocently..>!

returned home,,around 10 pm....some guests were there,,,talked to them....!

got free around 11:00 pm...eating,,,talking to dad....fight with sis,,,!

sat on the comp...and its around 2: 50 am ......dont know,,,,i have become an insomniac....finished a pack of MONACO...had to eat this biscuit pack,,b'cos no else was available...!

mom knocked the door,,at around 2 am....told me to sleepp, drink water.... !!!!

,feeling slleeepy..,,going to close this comp as soon as this blog is posted....AM I DREAMING...!

cross headed..!

2006-09-06T23:01:00.000+05:30

hi MISS BLOG..>!

a.> thinking of writing of something logical,,,something coherent,,,!!!

i have exams coming up next week..,,,so here is my plan...!

1. i will study from tommorow(have been saying this from the past three days)

2. i will buy the books tommorow(yeh i havent still bought the books,,books here means core engineering text books..!)

3. i will enquire all the syllabus for the exams tommorow,,and confirm it from some reliable source.

B> anywayz had been to the temple with my mom and dad.......,,,,,and could feel the happiness in their faces,,,,,i mean i dont know why ,,,but i asked mom:- "why are you feeling so happy??"

she said:-"it feels good to go to temple together...!"

,,,there was some ritual in the temple,,,,,and mom had kept all my clothes i.e. white kurta pyjama,,perfectly ready,,,,,,,she was really excited to send me to the temple,,,,,!!!

i am recovering well,,thanks again to mom.....she makes sure i drink adequate amount of water,,,,correct meal at correct time,,,,medicines....!

i am sure,,,,had my wife been there instead of her,,,,,she would have have told me..."to hell with your sickness and weakness,,,dhakkan,,,, either you get fit...,,in two days,,or i am going to divorce you and find a fitter hubby...!"

my reaction:-"mujhe meri biwi se bachao...! this illness is better than her torture..!"

DANGUE-d

2006-09-02T22:57:00.000+05:30

well,,i was OFF for the last few days,,,,,i mean ,,i virtually was...>!

so here i am after adding one more note to my FIRST TIME LIST...!

yeh,,,i was admitted to the hospital for the first time ever in my life....!

no not for one day ,,,it was fully for 5 days ...and the reason was dangue...!

for all of you unlucky one's who have not suffered from this privileged disease .....it is caused by the bite of a mosquito.....the symptons are:-

1. high fever

2. you feel too cold(at one time i was under 6 blankets and still was complaining of feeling cold)

3. the blood platelets goes down alarmingly.....!

i returned yesterday..>!

and feeling better at present..>!

mom is standing behind scolding me for using the comp. for a long time...>!

goin to sleep,,,,,,her voice is increasing alarmingly....!

last but not the least,,,,,there is nothing in this world other than being healthy,,,,felt this constantly in the hospital...will write about the experiences latter..>!

stay healthy...!

---AMBIvalent. ANKIT....!

2006-08-22T21:00:00.000+05:30

(caution:- unedited post ,,,)

hi miss blog...!

will discuss with you today a aspect which is bugging my mind from sometime....!

so here i come again in my philosophical AVTAAR....

will write the post on a serious note,,,

from the past many days,,,i have been meeting a lot of people and find one thing in common among them......no one seems to be happy.....!

the watchman in my college campus is unhaapy with his proffession,the laundry person thinks the life of a tailor is much better,,my hair cutter thinks life as a estate agent would have been much better,,,my dads freinds warns me not to come in bussiness line...!

the beggar hopes to become a common man,,,,the common man dreams of having a more sexy wife,,,the wife wants to have a hunk as her hubby,,,,,the hunk wants to be a superstar,,,,the superstar dreams of being a sharukh khan,,,he on other hand dreams of hollywood.... ,and after you reach the highest level one thinks of living a life of a middle class man,,,,having time to spend with his children....!

i mean thinking of the next level in the same profession is good and acceptable to me...>...but what strikes to me is....

a businesman thinking a life of a employed salried person is much better,,,the salaried person thinks of starting as a entrepreneur,,,,a call center employee thinking a news reporter job is much better,,,,a software engineer thinking a core job in her field is much better than typing codes,,,,a lawyer thinking a CA's life is much better,,,a doctor thinking of doing an mba,,,,,,

i mean all this seems natural on one hand,,,,i guess every human being has a tendency of thinking that the ther person is having a better life than what is theirs......!

and that is what is scaring me,,,,,,i mean on one hand ,,,,,,

sometimes i wake up.......and it strikes my mind,,,,,that HEY ANKIT,,,,,IS THIS THE LIFE YOU WANT TO LIVE....common fix some goal for you.....and work everyday towards that goal.....and i get charged up///!

while sometimes my mind tells me....CHILL off....just live a simple life buddy....stay happy ,,make others happy,,,life is flowing and will take you wherever you are destined too.....!

i mean both are conflicting ideas....one thought wants me to be more self focussed,,,while the other wants me to have a unplanned life,zombie life....!

CONCLUSION:- the key to this quetions i guess,,,,is to find out what makes me happpy...!

so what is happiness according to me....?

i mean i always believe ....we can never look for happiness,,,,,actually happiness is just a feeling,,,which comes as a by product,a side result of what we are doing....!

so its much better,,i stop thinking too much of what i have to do with the life ahead.....!
instead i should just try to make sure....that i do the things ,,which i would love to do.....!

for i guess,,,,if i run here and there in search of happiness ,,,then happiness will elude me at a faster rate..>!

SONG IN MY PLAY LIST:-

1. RAB JAANE:- a superb song by euphoria....telling us to leave everything in god's hand..!

2. KYA mujhe pyaar hain:- a song in the unreleased film...WOH LAMHE....song composed by pritam in the lines of tu hi mere shab hain....!

3. somewhere i belong:- linking park....!

--sis(sy)ter--

2006-08-20T22:22:00.000+05:30

hey miss blog,

i guess this is the most wierd moment to blog,,,,actaully,,,had a fight with my sis.....i mean she had a fight with me,,,,anywayz both concludes the same,,,,we both had a fight over each other,,,,,
though i still am not able to rightly remember what the fight was over.....but after a while,,,she said to my mom:-

"you are my biggest enemy,,,,why you gave me a brother like this..?"

i guess,,,i should have given her a better(i mean costlier gift) this rakshabandhan to her...!

i replied......."yes mom....she deserved a worser brother than me..."

pang,,,she threw a book at me,,,read its title......DALE CARNEGIE-HOW TO WIN FRIENDS AND INFLUENCE PEOPLE....apt for the situation,i guess...>!

CELLULAR.......!

2006-08-19T00:36:00.000+05:30

hey,,,MISS BLOG..!

just think about this:-

1. expecting an imp. call,,,,,,have to reach to office,,,speeding on my bike........and suddenly you hear the mobile ring....,,,,,i stop in the side of the road,,,,recieving the call.....and you hear...HUTCH AAPKE LIYE LAYA HAIN...AAPKE DOSTON KO SUNNANE KE LIYE CALLER TUNES.....blah blah,,,,KABHI ALVIDA NA KEHNA(aur bas rote rahena,,,) ke liye 1 DABAYE,,,,,DUS BAHANE ke liye 2 dabaye...3 dabaye...4 dabaye....!

this happened to me today....and instead of switching off the phone,,,i was standing there....and listening to the funny tunes...and suddenly i hear some french words bestowed on me from some highly well mannered people.....

THE sweet sounding words were ...////

B-C,,CHU*** ,,,,,(and some horns banged to rhyme with themm...!)...
i suddenly realise that....i had...around 30 trucks,,tempos,,,behind me....and i was blocking their way majestically.......!

2. FLOOD:-

during the recent floods,,,all the networks failed....especially of HUTCH,AIRTEL,,,partly BSNL,IDEA......
anywayz thats understandable......but though during this time we were not able to make or recieve calls.....but on regular intervals we used to get PROMOTIONAL MESSAGES like...AB HUTCH AAPKE LIYE LE KE AAYA HAIN,,,,,blah blah...regularly...!

i guess this was just the heights.....

the point i was trying to make,,,is i GUESS,,,the mobile service providers should start investing more money on upgrading their technology,,,,especially during emergency time like floods,,bomb blasts(to be taken as a natural calamity nowadays due to its regular frequency,,)......rather than investing a huge amount on the promotionas,add campaigns...etc....in order to lure new customers...!

3. went to see AHISTA AHISTA today-----wanted to see the film because of IMTIAZ ALI...who had written the story and screenplay of this film...he had directed SOCHA NA THA before.....had liked that film...!

liked the film,,,due to the nice screenplay,,sweet direction...and the authenticity of the characters....

watch the filmm....just for ABHAY DEOL....i guess he played the simpleton really well....he is going to go places////!

song on my play list:-

TUM JO MILE....from the film AHISTA AHISTA....really superbly sung by KUNAL GANJAWALA....and my credits to himesh reshammiya....nice compostion....really gels well with the film...!

EK PAL.....from the film ankahee....nice lyrics,,,soulful song sung by KK,,SONU,,SHREYA....three different version of the same song...!

TERE BIN.....from the unreleased film BAS EK PAL....waiting to see this film....song sung by ATIF...!

(blogger is acting wierdly,,not able to put my comments on the last post.....so here goes my reply on the last comment :

@neha

hi neha,,,,welcome..!

i agree with you,,,guess using your energy towards things under our control is anytime better than worrying about uncontollable stuff..>!

thank you,,,

ankit,.

)

turmoil...!

2006-08-17T06:54:00.000+05:30

good MORNING MISS BLOG....!

had got up at 4 am today,,,,the last few days were filled with hardcore reality,,,,something far away from the mushy world we create,,,we want to create...or rather we want to believe in.....

my city i.e SURAT had recently witnessed floods.......and this was not a usaul come and go water flow....where the children go and play in the puddle that has entered the city,,,,but rather this time the water gods played with the whole city......and left it with dirt,,,,potholes on the road everywhere,,,,and a huge chance of breaking of an epidemic,,,,!!!!
life does not seem normal nowadays,,,,the college has been closed till 1/9/06....cant go out walking b'cos of the turmoil in the roads...most of the friends have left the city,,,more are busy cleaning their houses,,repairing their cars,,,!!

had been to the more sevrly affected areas,,,,,no not for going to see the damage...but for distributing water pouches,,food packets.....!

and words cant express what i saw.....i guess would like to write about the past few days....but not now....

uff,,,,,lets start the day on a brighter note.....,,,.will not think about negative things today....!...!!!!!

CELEbrations..!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-06T15:18:00.000+05:30

hey MISS BLOG...!

no..no..!,,,dont worry will not harass with yet another highly intellectual post of my.....intellectual --thats what it seems to the three year old living next door...

actually,, its celebration time...its your BIRTHDAY.....!

so please give me your reactions on the following questions??

ankit>>> how are your feeling today..?

miss blog(mb)>>> i am feeling i deserve something better...much better,,,i mean in terms of the quality of the post that only ankit can strive for...!

yesterday itself,,,a blog friend of mine,,,,whose author is an oxford graduate...was making fun of me,,,,,
she was telling..:-"you have been posted with serious grammatical mistakes,,,,does your author write in english.??/....please persuade him to stop posting,,,or rather please stop him from sabbotaging ENGLISH language....unlucky you...!"
this was the ultimate insult i had since my inception....!

wish i could send ankit back to a primary school again..>!

ankit>>> so what do you expect from ankit..???

mb>>> wish he could post something more interesting,,,something not sub-normal,,,,which makes some sense...!

i dont mind in exhibiting his perenial problems,,fears,,fondness for rahman,,music,,,susspicions,,,but atleast he should put in his mind while posting something..!

wish could have taken him to a brain specialist....!!

ankit>> what annoys you the most about ankit..???

mb>>> first of all ,,i would have sued him for naming me TONU.blogspot.com

now thats the wierd word i have come across....i was in starting appalled to have such a appellation......so what if its the nickname of ankit...!

wish i had the right to select my own NAME, make up(template...etc..!)

ankit>> why does he blog ...??what fun does he get from disturbing you??/

miss blog..>> thats the suspense...!

i dont know....what makes him do this.....but i guess,,,,blogging gives him a sense of high....it makes him feel as if he is being heard,,,that his voice is being heard by one and all....>!

he believes that even the pm of 62 countries...including kazakhstan(who dont understand a word of english..!),,,visit his blogs...and take inspiration from his thoughts....!

ankit>>> so would like to continue with his association...?

mb>>< maybe not......or rather maybe yes,,,,,i have got so much used to listening to his nonsense....i have no other option.....maybe listening to where he travels,,how badly he fared in his exams,the foolish pics he posts,etc.....gives me a kick too.....wish could give him one big KICK to ..!

on a serious note:- i guess its a co incidence that friendship day and my blog's birth day co incide....but on a personal note..really happy to have completed one year of blogging successfully...it really has helped me to

a> connect to new people
b> connect to myself
c> helped me filll void time
d> make me get into my senses back..>!

this was my first post:_

CONFLICT WITHIN MYSELF,,,,,

SO, ATLAST I HAVE STARTED BLOGGING,,,,anywayz i would like to tell you(if anyone is hearing at the first place....) that the postings here will be entirely for my personal satisfaction that is it won't have any postings where i will write keeping in mind about others reading it.......
anywayz HEY why at the first place am i getting into this........actually i myself know that no one is interested in reading this blog...or for the matter no one is going to fall in this blog,
about my writing skills,,, i would just like to say that i am a amateur,,,,and not a single word or should i say constructive adjective could be or can be used for my style of writing( whether it is present or not...that's another question mark //????...)

NAINA....eyes CHEAT...!

2006-08-04T00:51:00.000+05:30

NAINA THAG LENGE:

NAINA THAG LENGE: meaning THE EYES WILL CHEAT YOU,,,dont trust the eyes...!

well,,,,this is the song in the new othello adapted film,,,,OMKARA,,,brilliant movie,,,,

so what's the big deal with this song......!!!!

dont know,,but this song ,,in fact the whole 8 songs in this album OMKARA...has hooked me....VISHAL(music and director director of the film...) has reached the apogee in this film...!

about this song,,,have been hearing it the whole evening....!,,,very philosophical lyrics given by gulzar...hats off to the old guy...!

sung by RAHAT FATEH ALI KHAN(yeh,,that dhadak dhadak guy in kalyug..!)

the bass effect in the whole sung,,just gives a grave feeling to the song,,,with the superb SITAR notes played by NILADRI KUMAR...is just awesome...!

the lyrics is full of antithesis,,,,,

it says dont believe the eyes..,,,
Eyes that take me through to the heavens and back, make me dream the clouds that would never rain. I still can’t afford to trust the eyes. It befuddles the rain.

They will con you and entice you and dupe you and rob you of your sleep.

The song cries, don’t love me. I am not yours.

!!!!!

the lyrics are full of abstract thoughts,,,reads the pyscology of mind....rendered in a rajasthani accent...!

the guitar strums just adds to the song more.....!

the song has got me bowled......will write a full review on the album.....a song not for the general masses thou...!

can only say......VISHAL has done a RAHMAAN here.....given his heart to the song..!

CANT GET THE SONG OUT OF MY HEAD...completely bowled!

the lyrics goes this way..>

bhala manda dekhe na paraya na saga re
nainon ko toh dasne ka chaska laga re

jagte jaadu phukenge re jagte jagte jaadu
jagte jaadu phukenge re neenden banjar kar denge

naina raat ko chalte chalte swargan mein le jaave
megh malhaar ke sapne dije hariyali dikhlave
naina raat ko chalte chalte swargan mein le jaave
megh malhaar ke sapne dije hariyali dikhlave
nainon ki zubaan pe bharosa nahi aata
likhad parakh na rasid na khaata
nainon ki zubaan pe bharosa nahi aata
likhad parakh na rasid na khaata
saari baat hamari -
bin baadal barsaaye saawan saawan bin barsaata
bin baadal barsaaye saawan naina baanwara kar denge
naina thag lenge

philosophical stuff...show off..!

2006-07-27T23:42:00.000+05:30

here come ANKIT BABA.....with his tonic of philosophical bakwass...!

CAUTION:- ,,,this aberrant ,unedited post is going to depict the highly low level of understanding this creature(can we call him ..human...) called TONU a.K.a ANKIT has got..!
the author is himself not sure whether the anomalous post will make any sense..!

okay now on a serious note,,,i guess this is a question which was buggin me from quite few days...so thought of penning it down before it sublimates from my mind.(...?.....i hope you have understood why is this question mark for..!)

WHY DO WE NEED TO SHOW OFF ..?

or rather the question can be put as:-

why do we want to assure ourselve,that we are something?

why do we to be sure that we are something?

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i guess,,this is not a new phenemenon seen in human nature....its going right from ages..!
i mean the feeling to show off....has been going through centuries...its not something that is as new as HIV infection,,nor it is like the newly developed disease called HIMESH-itis.....nor it is as new as the tennis elbow(i heard abt it when sachin got diagonsed with it..!)...

so coming to the point,,,
the maharajahs in the olden times,,,,depicted as having long moustaches in most of the b-grade hindi movies...used to show off their power,wealth thr' the palaces,and all those stupid punishments he used to give on his fellow people..!

thus he used to show off his cars,,,his titles,,,his position,,,,his riches..and this still continues till now ....!

the professor ,,the pundits try to show off their knowledge..!

i myself try to show off to my colleagues,,,that i am somebody in the class,,in the college....usaully to attract more friends,,
i guess its all the same thing,,,sometimes in small scale or sometimes in large scale..!

we see in every other scene salman khan trying to tear off his shirt.,,,,and in all the scenes we see,,,the heroines trying to show off their perfect body,,,that extra bit of cleavage,,,legs,,,and to whatever maximum that can be allowed uncensored..!

but i guess,,,thats their work,,,,i mean they are in a bussiness called SHOW BIZ....so they cant be blamed,,for trying to be more glamourous...!

but the more imp. ques is...WHY DO WE TEND TO DO THIS...?

accordin to me,,,,one tries to show off himself as someone...when one is empty from inside,,,,for eg...strip the politicians of their powers...the prime minister,,the rich people,,the rich men,,,,,and we will see what shallow people they are..!

i guess,,,thats the same case with blogging...for eg:- if i blog just to show off my writing skills,,,or if i try to write something for the readers.....then not only i am fooling the already fooled readers.....and imptly i am trying to fool myself...!

i mean how many times....we think low of those people who watch and enjoy immensely all those rajnikant and mithunda films,,,,doing unbelievable stunts..and playing 30 at age of 65...!
how many times we degrade those people,,,who enjoy listening to the bhojpuri songs,himesh songs,,, !

i mean we think that we ...who listen to LINKING PARK,shakira,dennis leary,dreamtheatres.....are better than them..>!

i mean we assume that those listening to himesh,or watching to bhojpuri films....are inferior to us,,as we enjoy watching the POTTERS.,IMPOSSIBLE ,,ETC...!

I GUESS,,,this is where we get wrong...i mean what is more imp. is how much we enjoy ourselves at these moments...>!
for its more likely that a guy seeing govinda doing all his nonsensical stuff...is enjoyin more ,,,than we .....who are watching the da-vinci code....and trying to feel the thrill artificially...!

to end it all,,,i guess....showing off is like a drum...!

we keep on beating it,,,,the noise being the show off part ,,,it gives the assurance that we are somebody,,,,,but actually in itself it is nothing,,,it has to beaten to be beaten to make those sounds...in itself the drum is empty..!

thus the moment we try to do something to assure to OTHERS that we are something...we become what cab be called empty from inside,,,uncreative...dull....for we are not ourselves..!

but the moment i guess, we do activities,,,thinking of OURSELVES as nobody...we feel happiness...!

same goes in exhibiting our feelings,,,for i guess....if our feelings are genuine,,,a pani puri at a road side stall together would mean more,,,than having a dinner arranged at a five star hotel...with our loved one..,,,!

CONCLUSION...:- always have the feeling,,that we dont need to get the assurance of being someone..the moment we reach that stage,,maybe we will feel what can be called incorruptible happiness,,,inner richness...!

so here goes ANKIT BABA....with his complex preachings...though its not more complex in understanding...."whether rakhi sawant smooched or got herself smooched..!"

got a class tom.morning...hope to make it on time..!

SONG ON MY PLAYLIST:- nothing without you...by NUSRAT FATEH ALI KHAN....he truly is a master man...no doubts....just listen him render his voice to these lines...
SANU EK PAL CHAIN NA AAVE,sajana tere bina...!

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2006-07-26T00:41:00.001+05:30

hi MISS BLOG>>>!

so here comes yet another half-hearted wriiten blog ,,,,am really sorry to say that,,,but just going through the phase of not feeling to write,,,yet want to BLOG something...!

1. resolved:-

seeing most of my friends so concerned for the future ahead,,,,dont know,,,,but its making feel sick,,,giving me think pangs,,that maybe i should start being more concerned and more imptly....start controlling the 5 SENSES...MR. GOD has gifted me in a more channelised way..>!

so after around some ages.....ihave made these resolutions ,,,:-

A. WIN THE BATTLE OF BED:- i guess its high time,,my sleeping habits start resembling a normal human being..!
\b. START BEING MORE WIERD:- though its not something ,,that comes to me naturally,,,but should sstart being more of myself....i mean,,,,not try to be someone else,,just for thee sake of obliging others,,,that is be less polite to the things i despise...and give more time to what i think would suit me...!

c. FOCUS:- see my goals...!

so what else,,,will blog something more serious soon.,,,,good night,,,!

NEW TERM...!

2006-07-24T00:54:00.000+05:30

1. SEM STARTS:-

yeh,,so today my vacations have officialy got over,,will have a new sem starting from tommorwo,,having new set of subjects to deal with....heard the name of one of the subject...FLUID FLOW OPERATIONS....,,!

actually,,,i am not sweating hearing the new names of my subjects....but rather waiting to have a glance into these new subjects,,,and find out whether they will interest me or not..!

anywayz the college timings has been changed,,,the new timings shows that the classes starts from 8:30 in the morning..>!

hoping to make to these classes....and will give a pat to myself,,if i attend theses classes after having a bath or even my breakfast..>!,,,

2. books,,,!

read a book called ELEVEN MINUTES....interesting,,,made me think ,,,will come up with a complete review on this brillian book,,,depicting the story of prostitute..!

its already 1 am......hope dont miss the class at 8:30 tommorow...have kept the alarm of 7:30am.....may GOD BLESS ME..!

MUST for every INDIAN...!

2006-07-19T23:11:00.000+05:30

want to see MASTERS at work,,,,then do see this video...!

it has my BOSS AR RAHMAN,,weaving magic with the best,,,just try to feel the way he has arranged and confluenced the expertise of the masters of india...!

this video,composition will make any indian PROUD,anytime......!

the purity of work touched me...!

the link is...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kVe6wSi89U

suggestion:-

have the patience to view the whole video,,,!

BAD HABITS unlimited..>@!

2006-07-18T23:40:00.000+05:30

got a call.....!

hey ANKIT,,,i am back....cya soon out here...!

this call left me with some mixed emotions..,,,for it was a call from one of my friend,,,who had returned back to the hostel..!

thus notifyin to me the near end of my vacations,,,my college restarts on 24th of this july,,,so have another week to go...!

yeh mixed emotions b'cos,,,though happy,,for a major chunk of the vacations went in travelling,,,a thing which i rejoice doing...!

but on the other hand,,,have started feeling the pressure of the innumerable exams,,i will have to go through....the assignments i will have to put in,,,

anywayz would have to retify SOME of my bad habits:-

waking habits
praying habits
teaching habits
thinking habits
eating habits
talking habits
reading habits
net habits
time management habits
thinking habits
writing habits
blogging habits
commenting habits
communicating habits
driving habits
spending habits
listening habits
waiting habits
time wasting habits
craming habits
explaining habits
sleeping habits
playing habits
chatting habits
SLEEPING HABITS
and more imptly,,have to inculcate the habit to stop bragging nonsesical stuff at the right time...going thr' a high dose of sleep.....habits habit...zzzzzzz////z/!

positively positive,,,!

2006-07-17T00:17:00.000+05:30

GOING BACK,,,thr' the pages..>!

2006-07-14T23:53:00.000+05:30

1. egg-xam TENSIONS:-

hey MISS BLOG...before you start scratching your heads,,,,thinking from where the hell did i get into a exam time now.....dont worry !>..my vacations are still going on,,and going to end OFFICIALY on the 24th of this july....!

and also hey i forgot to give you one news....so let me do it in a dramatic i-style.....(raising both my hands and banging my chest...in a true tarzan style,,,)...yeh i have cleared the previous sem officially,,and legally...and yeh..i passed with enough marks,,,
and imp. the marks were enough to avoid me doing such actions..,,

a. take a pillow,,and sob like a girl,,,and not to eat anything for the next two days...!

b. it saved the small sweety child of my neighbour whom i call rudra,,,for getting a spanking from me,,,(he always helps me to take out my anger in this way....{you all can try,,it really works...})..just jokin...
actually in fact playing with him for a while,,,fuses out all the ill feelings i go through...!

c. the marks were good enough to announce the result at home without any guilt...i mean guilt of not telling the original marks,,and not informing abt it as soon as the results were announced...!

d. importantly i did not feel it necesssary to reproduce a FAKE MARKSHEET..!

e. i can proudy go into the class,,,and give a few unlucky ones a good cold stare.....and say,,,hey,,even a fool like me could beat you all...!,,and the marks are not so bad enough to get a really inferior look from the toopers

so coming to the point,,,a friend of mine,,could not give the final exams ,,,so he has to give the supplementary exams....
but the problem he has created for me,,,,he thinks i am worthy enough to prepare him well for the exams,,,as a result have to go back thr' the pages i dreaded like i do,,when i hear a himesh song being played somewhere....!

have to get up early and go to meet him in the hostel....explain him...
1. HOW TO DESIGN A COTTER JOINT....wish i could design my priorities b4 learning this..!

2. WHAT IS FE-CU phase diagram.....the diagram is as complicated as a NARMADA bachao andolankaar.....it looks like two three jalebis mixed together to make a abstract diagram..!

3. WHAT IS THE recovery of PRODUCT,,,when .00025741% dimethyl amine reacts with.0005874% pyridine and more blah blah .....!

anywayz will not give you more head spins,,
actually honestly would be more than happy to help him pass through,,,so that one day he can proudly say to his wife,,this is the MAN....who helped me become what i am..!
hey i can really be over-dramtic....????